Wednesday, March 31, 2004

2360 wed - Bridget Duncan and Jared Pierce

2418 All the following children were adopted. They are listed in order of adoption. The year and date of birth . Their name, then age they were at time of adoption.
2412 June 7 Jack 6
2414 February 28 Linda 4
2415 May 8 Sean 3
2402 August 16 Megan 16
2404 November 30 Paul 14
2409 September 13 Mary 9
Eagle: Shall we go to that little Italian place near where you used to work? They had the best food there. We can dance and hold each other close. We'll have to the dance floor is so small.
Mari: Certainly we should, but I don't think we need that kind of motivation.
Eagle: I looked at my wife. No, I don't believe we do I said as I took her hand . I touched the rings and thought of the marriages they represented. Mari and I had been married 15 years now. I wondered where the time had gone. Mari, I asked, would you marry me again if you had it to do over again?
Mari: I looked into his eyes, and told him I most definitely would marry him. There was absolutely no doubt that I would. What about you?
Eagle: I held her gaze, yes Mari. I never want you to doubt it. I took her hand , helping her up, Lets walk 'kay?
Mari: Okay, I never did doubt it Eagle, I smiled.
Eagle: I chose not to worry about anything for the rest of the day. We went shopping, window shopping mostly, not because we couldn't pay for something if we wanted it but , because it was fun -to just look sometimes. If we did see something we couldn't live with out or could use for a gift all the better. I could feel my body relax and I put my arm around Mari's waist.
The next morning we took our usual seat together with one of Mari's fruit drinks. Mari, I think that Pandora should put together her portfolio and get the recommendations she needs and send a set to each school. Greenridge, Carpenali and Portland. Are you familiar with any of them and do you agree with me?
Marijuana: You're right, she should. No, I'm not familiar with any of them, but from the looks of the brochures, they seem to be pretty much the same.
Eagle: When the kids came home we talked to Pandora. Making sure that she knew that we hadn't made our decision yet.

Tuesday, March 30, 2004

BJ: When do you have to go to work? Is it today? It's going on lunch time-hungry?
Keely: I need to be at the restaurant in 2 hours, and I haven't eaten yet, so I could do with some lunch.
BJ: If you have to change before you go, we could pick-up some salad fixings and I'll put it together while you primp-dress etc. What do you think?
Keely: Great, tell me, where is all this energy coming from anyways?
BJ: We had just reached the grocers and I swung the door open for her. As she passed,I attempted to answered her question about where my energy came from. It's always been here Keely, just not directed towards you. I haven't had my run this morning, not tired form air time or the run back and I'm excited about learning more about dance. It took only a few minutes to get what we wanted and return to the house. Keely opened the door for me, then went to get ready. The salads took only a few minutes and I was sprinkling the dressing over them when Keely reappeared. " Your fork," I said as I handed it to her.
Keely: The salad was delicious, and I thanked him for it before I left for work. I didn't know if he'd be there still when I got home, and I wondered why he was here in the first place. Yes, he was renting a room but why hadn't he just asked gram or one of those other girls to take the classes with him? I wasn't going to ask, but I called to make sure gram was ok before I started work.
BJ: I chose to run. I changed clothes and boots and left. There were a few others I knew running in the park and we ran together making plans to meet later tonight . Gambling, no Jill not tonight. I guess the answer surprised them because they ran in to some other jogers. Later I said and headed in another direction. When I finally got back, I turned on the latte machine and went for my shower. I didn't have to lock my door or even shut it today . I wouldn't take my latte in the bedroom either, I would have it when I was done. I warped my towel around me and sat and drank three cups, slowly as put together tomorrows program. I had no idea when Keely would be back. I figured the next time I saw her It would be just before our dance lesson tomorrow afternoon. I put on a pair of clean shorts,cleaned up the dishes and things from lunch and the few things that were out of place. Not much to do. I tore my room apart. Scrubbing down the walls and painting them. I tossed out all the odds and ends I no longer wanted. When I put it back together it seemed larger, friendlier. I used the transport to take me to my destination with all my old clothes. I donated them to one of those places. I wore my tux with the cuff links Mercedes had given me. I would be the extra man at this dinner. A partner for whatever woman they had invited who was without one. I hoped that who ever she was she was interesting and that she would keep my mind busy.
My mind kept going back to Mercedes and once more I pushed her from my thoughts, or tried to .
The night turned out to be quite nice. The woman was beautiful, intelligent and I was quite taken with her. She seemed a younger version of Mercedes and I would see her again. I might sleep with her. She had pressed me to sleep with her tonight but I hadn't. I removed the cuff links from my shirt and just held them for the longest time then set them in their case. I almost picked up the phone to call, it would be too early. She would be sleeping now. I needed sleep, I took off my clothes and lay on the bed and slept. The next day I met Keely at the dance studio. No belt buckle today I told her. What are you doing after this lesson I asked, another job? I'd like to take you horseback ridding in the park and we can have lunch there too, what do you think?

Sloane and Chelsea Chandler are twins- Lionel and Faith's girls

2409 age 46 Mason and Talia P( I think it stands for Pierce)
2409 age 43 Catherine P
2409 age 48 Broderick P -physical therapist
2409 age 44 Brendon P
2409 age 38 Theresa P
in the margin near Catherine I have written Raphael under that Parker and under that Barbara

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2364 January 15 Courtney, Marilyn , Justine Hanson- Parents Chelsea Chandler and Neil Paul Hanson
2339 September 2 Neil Paul Hanson born
2407 age 68 Seth Chandler- wed Amity Bichette Locke in 2373 April 3
2350 February 5 Amity Bichette Locke born

Monday, March 29, 2004

Mer: BJ, is everything OK?
BJ: Yes, of course. Are you hungry Mer or would you just like to go home?
Mer: No, I'm not hungry. I hated this everyone seemed to know me so well, especially BJ and I couldn't read him at all.
BJ: Let's go skinny dipping. We can get the champagne and chocolate dipped strawberries from the room and go out on the sailboat. What do you say Mer, are you game?
Mer: We gathered our things, and left. We got on the sailboat, and proceeded to jump naked into the water. The water was freezing, but we had fun. I had been a teenager the last time I had been skinny dipping.
BJ: The water was cold, damn cold at first. We swam and horsed around for a while and then climbed into the boat and under the netting. I poured chocolate on to my stomach for dipping the strawberries and we drank champane from the bottle.
Mer: When the strawberries were gone, I kissed the chocolate off of his stomach, and it was a wonderful night. I woke with the heat of the sun beating down on me, there was only one problem, I was alone. I found the rose BJ had left me, it was made from an assortment of paper, cork, and foil. I got things cleaned up, and headed for home. No BJ, hmmm. I went with PJ for a run, and we stopped and played at the park before running home again. I wasn't feeling too ambitious, so I found my way into bed, and listened to some music. I found myself writing, but it wasn't a song, it was sort of like my life story. I was sitting there in the midst of all my journals, rewriting all of it as I remembered it now. There was a knock on the door, and I left things laying about the bedroom as I unburied myself from them.
Keely: Well, she hates it. Horses, cleaning, and cows aren't her favorite things, They're on a cattle drive or something like that now, supposed to be back at the ranch from that next week.
BJ: She doesn't like any part of it at all? Maybe she'd like a trip on the Whale?
A little gambling, swimming pool . She could even shoot skeet. Maybe I'll teach her how to shoot! Do you think she would be interested?
Keely: I'm sure she would be, but I don't think that's going to happen BJ. In fact, it won't happen, not until she can get her grades up, anyways.
BJ: Are you saying that you would let her come with me? That is very interesting. When did you decide that you could trust me? Oh, yes, I have one more question for you. I would like it if you would be my partner -my dance lessons partner that is. Do you think you could manage it? I know you have a lot going on just on normal days but, it won't cost you a thing, it would help me and it couldn't hurt you I don't think. I let her think about it and started eating my food. I had forgotten how good the food here was.
Keely: Well, I guess it mostly depends on when the classes are.... I picked up a couple extra jobs while Caroline is away. What kind of dance lessons are you going to be taking?
BJ: Time doesn't matter they will work around whatever I need. Kind- Oh you know Tango -Salsa -all the sexy ones. Are you up for it?
Keely: I suppose so, no reason not to.
BJ: Great! Just let me know when you can do it and leave the rest to me.
By the way, what happened with that guy you met around Christmas- time? Are you still seeing each other? Or was he a cad?
Keely: Oh god, he was not my type of guy, and we'll leave it at that. I've got Monday afternoons, and Sunday mornings off. I've been thinking that there are one or two worthwhile down at the docks, but getting them away from their boats is something that may require more work than I have time!
BJ: Keely, a little advice, if you don't love boats forget the guys down at the docks. A man or woman and her boat are seldom parted. Monday afternoons and Sunday mornings are wonderful times! We seem to be done, so let's take a ourselves there and work things out. I helped her up and left the money for our meal and tip on the table. Rafe, the instructor, said that either day would be fine. I turned to Keely and asked -both days then? And can we start today? I asked him? Yes, if that what you would like he told us. Well, what do you think Keely?
Keely: I couldn't believe this! It wasn't exactly what I had in mind, but I heard myself saying 'Yea, okay.'
BJ: I had expected more resistance, so when I heard her say Yea, okay, I was pleasantly surprised . There were three other couples there when Rafe led us into the room we would be using. He put us all through our paces to see exactly how much we knew. I was surprised at how much I didn't know about dancing. We would learn. That's why we were all here. The time was up before I realized . I felt stiff and awkward when I watched Rafe dancing with a partner and I wondered if I would ever be that relaxed. I also thought that maybe Keely would catch on faster than I. Would you like to just do Sundays I asked her or Monday afternoons too?
Keely: It looks like we could use the extra time, unless you're scared? I'm joking, I'm fine with both, and you'll never get better if you don't work at it.
BJ: You are right and I'm very fond of challenges.
Keely: I noticed that the other women were wearing heels, and thought that I'd bring some with me on monday.
Marijuana: Hi Po' what's going on?
Po': Hi there! I'm just having a bit of trouble with transportation. I don't have any. Hennesy had to go to the Whale and I need you to deliver them, the children to me. It won't be a problem will it? Blake is going to pick them up from here for the circus, but do you want us to keep them over night? It won't be a problem if you do. We are going to the circus too and we could all have dinner together. Never mind that though, nothing for you to worry about. Have you two decided where your going? Okay, I'm chattering aren't I. Sorry Mari. Can you bring them?
Mari: Hang on a sec, Eagle? Can we drop the kids off with Po'? Oh, she says the kids can stay over there tonight? Eagle?
Eagle: We can do that I said as I reached the doorway. The next 45 minutes were filled with scrambling to get overnight packs filled . We finally deposited them with Po. Then to somewhere we could sit and talk. I spotted an outdoor cafe. We ordered drinks and after we had taken a few minutes to relax with them I told her that Panda wanted to go to a private girls school. Then I told her the reasons I'd been given. And waited for her to explode. I had told her everything.
Mari: Who are those boys Eagle? I had every intention of tracking down their parents, and killing them. Not literally, but I had been 14, and now those losers were making my child's life difficult using their children. Who are they Eagle?
Eagle: Mari, She didn't want me to tell you. She doesn't want you or I to do anything except get her out! I did tell her that I didn't make these decisions alone though. She has a list of schools she has looked into, and knows what It will take to get in. If you do what your thinking of doing it will blow up in Panda's face Marijuana, are you listening to me!? I was trying to stay calm.
Mari: I'm listening. This whole mess was my fault. I can't just do nothing, and doesn't she know that girls can be even more nasty than boys?
Eagle: They can be and I'm sure she knows that. As for you, and it being your fault. Sweetheart it was a long time ago and that little girl is all grown up. If you hadn't married me or some other highly visible man, people wouldn't be talking at all. If you want to look at it that way, I'm just as responsible, maybe more so than you.
Mari: Eagle, I love you so much. What should we do?
Eagle: I would like to have them charged with harassment but I don't want Pandora's face all over the papers. We could let her go. There is no reason for there to be trouble at the private school. If there is we'll take steps and Pandora will hopefully be old enough to accept who she is and who her parents are. Or we could make her face it now. I'm not sure which is best, but I'm her father and I want to protect her as long as I can. Mari, if she goes to school with other girls of parents like us she might not have as much trouble. I don't know. We could check out the schools and pick the one we feel is best. Pandora won't care as long as it isn't here. Now that I've put all of my thoughts into words, I can think of one more choice -homeschooling.
I love you Mari. Breeze made me face it.
Mari: I suppose we should start by looking at the schools she has picked out, and go from there. But she didn't give us much time, she may need to wait for the second semester to go....
Eagle: No Mari I told her she wouldn't have to wait. We could take her with us and visit them.
Mari: Eagle, it's nearly July, even if she comes with us, she still needs to apply, and do interviews, and all that garbage.
Eagle: It won't be a problem Mari. Take my word for it . What good is being famous and knowing people if once in a great while you can't ask a favor or two?
Mari: Eagle, sweetie. If she's going to go to one of those schools, she should get in because she belongs there, not because of her parents. If you want to ask them to rush things, that's fine. But I will not let you influence whether or not they let her in. That could be nearly as damaging to her as what's going on now, and we don't want that do we?
Eagle: I was only going to ask that they rush it through Mari. What kind of a man do you think you married? No don't answer that. I've been known to change my stripes. So have we decided to let her go? She's my baby Mari.......
Mari: She's our baby Eagle..... I don't know that we've decided anything, beyond looking that is.
Eagle: Alright, let's leave this subject and decide where you and I are going for 2 weeks, shall we. It's your turn to give me a couple of choices. So let's hear what they are?
Mari: I'm thinking we can go to Jamaica, Maine, or Brazil?
Eagle: Brazil I haven't been there in a long time.
Mari: Ok, that'll be great. Honey, is there somewhere you haven't been?
Eagle: No. Breeze traveled a lot and except for the time we have been married so did I. Disappointed?
Mari: Just a little, tiny bit. What are we doing tonight?
Ariana: When I got back to the cabin I was worn out. I had just enough strength left to lay down on the couch and pull the blanket off the back and over me. When I awoke the suns rays were pouring over me. It felt warn and wonderful. Then suddenly there was no sun and I realized someone was blocking the light. Who's there ?

Sunday, March 28, 2004

Eagle : I didn't know what to do now. I needed to talk this over with Mari but how? If I didn't tell her the whole thing it would feel like a lie. Okay, I was a rotten father and I didn't know what I was doing . I would have loved to go to school -I wouldn't have to do that. I had other children who could and would tell me who said what. It would give me a deep pleasure to discuss this with them. I asked Hunter and got my answers . He had confessed to finding ways to get even with them, frontal attack was not one of them . It seemed that they were a few years older than him. He wanted to know what his punishment would be. Keeping your room clean ! I told him but, I think you should have some reward for trying in your own way to protect your sister, so I am going to give you 5 credits. Keep them safe Hunter!
Mari: Protect his sister? Hunter had left with his credits, and I was going to find out what was going on. What's going on?
Eagle: Mari? Come in were you looking for me?
Mari: I was actually supposed to be seeking River and Chablis, but since I already know where they are, can you tell me what Hunter is trying to protect his sister from?
Eagle: Bullies . The door bell rang just then and a thunder of feet could be heard rushing to answer , then laughter. I looked at Mari questioningly and she shrugged. We can talk later Mari when we're alone. Is Po' coming for the children or we taking them there? I know sooner got the words out of my mouth when the phone rang. It was Po' and I handed it over to Mari, then headed for the door. Aurora? Hello Eagle, can we talk ? The kids scattered and we went into the breakfast-room. Coffee-Juice? Tomato juice if you have it. She didn't wait for the juice before she began. I can't find mom , have you seen her? Not really, just in passing . She looked upset and that's it. Aurora wanted to know where I'd seen her . I stopped and asked what was going on. She told me that she wanted to have a memorial service for her father and wanted Ariana to have some input. She needs closure but won't face it . I am at my wit's end. She seems to be running away from everyone, at least it seems so to me. And I'm truly worried for her. So tell me Eagle, where did you see her? At Kari's I told her but , she ran away. We'll be having the service the second week in July Eagle and we would like you and Mari to be there. I 'm not sure if you want the children to come or not? That's up to you. We will be announcing it in the paper but if you could spread the news that would be helpful. I really have to go, please tell Marijuana I said hello. Thanks Eagle good bye. She kissed my cheek and was gone. The tomato juice sat on the table where I had set it. I took a deep breath and slowly let it out, and drank the juice. Mari, I called, what is happening with Po'? I hope she's just going to be late, Mari? My voice had returned to it's normal level .
Hunter: grama didn't say anything. She just had that dreamy look on her face . She let me take the book and I looked at the remaining pictures. Then I carefully closed it and set it on the table. Grama I asked, are you alright? Should I get mom?
Kari: No, sweetie, grama's fine. Pandora came in, to collect Hunter; I told him I'd make a duplicate album for him, I'd bring it over next weekend. I kissed all the kids goodbye, and Eagle said he'd call the following day. They left, and I began going through some things and sorting out what was what.
Eagle: I called Kari to see how things were going. She sounded tired and I asked if could use some help. Not today she said and that together with a few pleasantries ended our conversation. Mari and I were going to spend some time alone today and try to get away alone together later. There was just too much happening now. No! Damn it we were going! We were sending Panda and Hunter to the same camp. River and Chablis would stay with Po' and Hennesy one week and Rudy and Ell the next. Mari and I just hadn't decided where we were going. We'd talk today. Blake and his woman friend were taking them to the circus and Hennesy, Po' and the kids would probably be going too.

Saturday, March 27, 2004

Pandora: I guess I had the wrong impression. I was sorry for upsetting Hunter, but angry with mom for what I thought Hunter was going to tell her. The older boys talked, and thought--well I don't want to say what they thought, but I was mad. There was nothing good about being a girl, and I didn't want anything to do with any of it! I tried to leave the house, I just wanted to be left alone; if I talked to mom, I'd have to tell her what I'd heard.
Eagle: I was sitting on the porch trying to work the words I'd written into the music I wanted to use. Panda, I called to her when she came to the door. I'm over here, if your looking for me. I waited for her reply.
Panda: Daddy, can I go to private school? I don't like it at the public school.
Eagle: I patted the spot next to me and Pandora came over and sat beside me. I guessed this wouldn't be a look me in the eye conversation. Private school hummm. Why would you want to go to private school?
Pandora: I just don't want to deal with boys, and what better place to focus on myself and what I want from an education than an all girls school? I hoped that he didn't know there was more to it than this.
Eagle: Well Pandora, you have a legitimate point there but you have very good focus now . I believe you had better tell me the whole truth Panda, so that I can make my decision based on all the facts. So tell me won't you?
Panda: Now I have good focus, but the hormone thing hasn't started yet, and I just think it would be better if I wasn't exposed to it is all. Boys daddy, they talk. And some of the things they say, well; it's just not respectful, and it's just me, none of the other girls. Awful things they say about me, and momma. Please, let me go to private school this year, for my birthday gift? You don't even have to get me anything for Christmas, or my birthday next year even, just let me go somewhere that they don't talk about me like that. Please Daddy?
Eagle: Thank you for being honest with me, now I'll be honest with you. You won't be given an answer today but, you will know before enrollment deadlines, fair enough? I was determined to keep this discussion positive not negative. I wanted Pandora to think positive. To think of what she wanted to accomplish and how best to do it and where? Have you put any thought into where you would like to go to school?
Pandora: Yes, I have. I pulled the pamphlets out of my bag, and handed them over, Greenridge, Carpinali, and Portland. All demanded a high grade point average, and had good business and art departments. I needed a portfolio, and a recommendation. I'd be in my element, and there wouldn't be boys there.
Eagle: Have you talked to anyone else about this Panda? Teachers -your mother -anyone?
Pandora: No. I didn't want mom to go to the school and throw a fit, or to call people's parents or something like that. I don't want her to know about that.
Eagle: Pandora, I don't make these decisions alone. I kissed her forhead. Go now and round up your borthers and sister, it's getting late. We said goodnight to Kari and went home. I would call tomorrow.
BJ: I was on the same schedule as before. We agreed that I would do the celebrity auction for community improvements. That was all, anything else would be negociated. I had no more trouble with my neighbor. She sold me her condo and I had the whole place re-done. Walls torn out, master bath put in. The other kitchen I turned into a bar area. I stocked it with every thing from whiskey to coffee, expresso-latte. All top quality. I now had two full baths and two guest rooms. It should all be done in Aug. until then I would stay with Mercedes. She seemed to like having me about. This Saturday I would spend on the Whale and I asked Mer if she would like to join me.
Mercedes: Are you sure you aren't tired of me yet? If he wasn't, then I'd love to go. If he was just being nice, I'd rather stay home; I completely understood that he didn't want to commit, and spending so much time with me may not be what he had in mind. Either way, I would be happy.
BJ: The smile on my face left as I looked into her eyes. I'm not sure how long I had been looking into those eyes, when I felt her hand on my arm . Tired? I asked, not just yet.
Mer: He looked into my eyes so deeply and so long, I could feel myself blush, I put my hand on his arm, and he finally spoke, only now I was no longer sure of what kind of ground I stood on, was it still the same as it had been, or had something in him changed. I hadn't meant for it to be a serious question, in fact I should have known that if he didn't want me around he wouldn't have asked me to join him. I made arrangements for PJ to be taken care of until we got back.
BJ: We went skeet shooting . Hadn't done it in a long time and I enjoyed myself. I wasn't sure whether Mer did this time. She seemed to be somewhere else. It could be my imagination though, I wasn't sure. When the time came to play I asked Mer if she was going to join this time.
Mer: Sure. We had done the skeet shooting earlier, and now it was time to play poker. I prepared myself mentally for the game, while we walked down to the playing table. Things turned very much in my favor, and instead of losing money, I was winning-a little anyways.
BJ: I stopped playing . Folded, I couldn't concentrate. I let someone else take my seat and watched Mercedes play.
Mer: BJ stopped playing, it was strange to see. I'd never known him to lose his game, no matter what game it was. I played until I started to lose, and relinquished my seat. It seemed that we had both been off in space at some point that day. I took his hand, and we walked.
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Keely: Caroline was finally off at the ranch camp, hopefully she was learning something. If this didn't work, I didn't know what I'd do with her. BJ had left me with a years worth of paid rent, and I had absolutely all the free time in the world. I chose to find a summer job, one of those temporary ones that pays a ton. In the end, I had three jobs. The waitressing, reception desk at the hotel, and another down at the fish market. Come the end of the summer, I had a large sum of money in my bank account. You wouldn't find me broke if I lost a job this year; if I kept it there long enough, I'd even gain some interest on it.
Kari: I decided to call Ariana and invite her over too, but when I heard Chandler's voice on the machine I knew where to find her. So I made a call over there, and asked her to come out of there, we'd talk when she got to the house, today had certainly not been my best day, and it was clear that it hadn't been hers either.
Ariana: It was Kari. I had half expected it to be Breeze. She wanted me to come over and because she sounded like I felt, I agreed.
Kari: I took a few minutes to talk with Ariana when she arrived, I told her about what I had done when Eagle came in the door, and what I planned to do over the next few weeks. And then I told her she should go to the memorial service, it wasn't like she'd be able to change her mind when it was over, I didn't want her to regret not going.
Ariana: Kari, it's not just that she wants me to go, she wants me to help her plan it! I can't and I won't! I'm so angry with him I can't see straight. I'm sure that what he wanted was on that tape or in his will! I stopped. I looked around the big friendly room . Everything was as I remembered it. I wiped my nose and eyes on a hankiechif. I was walking around touching things, remembering and then Eagle came in from the other room. I don't know where I had thought he was but seeing him come into the room and put his arm around Kari and then smile at me - It nearly killed me and I ran . I'm sorry Kari , I'll call later -bye Eagle ! I wasn't any good to any one right now. I was a horrid friend and I should have stayed. She needed me but I just couldn't do it right now and I hoped that she could forgive me.

Kari: Ariana! Crap. Wonder when she'll come down again, now that she's been spooked. I wasn't going to worry about it, it wouldn't help anyone. Did I hear some one say something about going for a ride on one of the horses? Hunter, Pandora? I took them out for a ride around the land, we'd be back for dinner, I promised.
Hunter: Thanks gram! Your the best gram I have. Can we ride up to the cabin?
Kari: Not today sweetie, I was thinking we'd follow a different trail today.
Hunter : Gram had never taken us this way before and before we knew it Pandora and I found ourselves back at the horse barn. It seemed to me a very short ride but, when I looked at my watch I found we had been gone an hour. I wondered if they ate without us. Panda was turning into I don't know what. Yes I do, a girl !
Pandora: I loved riding on this property, all the little things hidden everywhere. I wish this was our place, and I could ride off whenever I wanted. Hunter was a boy, no getting around it, creepy things, slimy things, and all the other disgusting boy stuff. I think I'll need to ask mom to take me shopping, then I'll ask if we can live here. Maybe, probably not though.
Hunter: Panda, what do you want for your birthday? Do you know? Your going to be a TEENager you know! That's when girls turn rotten, isn't it mom?
Marijuana: I was dumbfounded at his remark, No it isn't Hunter. Boys are just as likely to be rotten as girls, and you're going to tell me right now exactly where you got that idea from, do you understand me?
Hunter: Mom was angry. I set my jaw and didn't want to tell her. School, was all I said, it was true.
Pandora: Go ahead Hunter, tell her. We'd heard the what the other parents had to say about mom. I'd heard boys talking about me, well apple not falling far from the tree thing. Come on, if you don't say it I will.
Hunter : I narrowed my eyes and glared at her. FINE ! In health, I threw at her, they start menstruating and every one knows that boys don't develop as fast as girls! Satisfied I yelled at Panda!
Mari: Enough. Panda, I'll talk with you later. I was calm now, and took Hunter aside. Hunter, it's ok. Yes, girls start menstruating, and yes they develop faster than boys, but that doesn't make them rotten. Do you understand?
Hunter : Mom ,teenagers are not nice to their parents or their brother and sisters. Their hormones go crazy only girls go crazy first. Isn't that right! I knew I was right.
Mari: Hunter honey, everybody is different, not all teenagers are mean to their parents and family. Being a teenager isn't easy, you'll understand that when you get older. Now, let's not give Panda a hard time about things that may or may not happen.
Hunter : Ok, I won't . I chewed on my lip. After I made sure mom knew I was right . Another thought had come into my head. I had heard some of the things boys were saying to Pandora but, I wasn't sure I should say anything to mom about . I decided not to say anything yet. OK I said again, can I go now Gram is going to play cards with me.
Mari: Go ahead, tell gram no betting.
Hunter: I wasn't going to do that . I had saved up a lot of pennies for this. Are you ready to play gram? They aren't playing too are they? I sighed as I walked over to the old maid game that was now in progress.
Kari: Your game will come, relax. You have your pennies ready?
Hunter: I gave her my raised eyebrows, like I'd seen daddy do, and very grown-up like said, do frogs hop?
Kari: All I could do was laugh, I had seen that exact same look so many times between Eagle and Breeze, and now it seemed that Hunter would be carrying the tradition as well. We (Chablis, River and myself) finished up our game, and I took them to the play room, they could be as artistic as they pleased, as long as they stayed in this room, they understood, and I went to play cards with Hunter.
I had all the cards dealt by the time she came back down stairs, and all my pennies counted in neat rows. So gram, I said to her , how much can you afford to lose tonight? Do I get to stay overnight? Grama won all my pennies, by the end of the game. That was alright one of these days I would win. Grama - umm you aren't going to go away anywhere umm are you? If Grampa marries Ell ?
Kari: Grampa Rudy is a little young for me, don't you think? Hunter, do you remember grampa Breeze? I pulled out a photo album, It's been quite a while since he died, so it's ok if you don't. We looked through the photo album, beautiful pictures, of times when nothing mattered but being happy and being happy meant being with those you loved.
Hunter: I looked at grama appraisingly and answered truthfully, I don't know I said. When she first asked about granpa Breeze I wasn't sure what I remembered. I had been told a lot though. Grama got out a photo album and as we looked through it, she told me about the days they had been taken and what was happening. It was like listening to a story. Then I saw a picture of a man holding a guitar a child sandwiched in between. Me and Daddy! I exclaimed looking up into grama's face right? Using the word daddy had embarrassed me and my cheeks felt hot.

Friday, March 26, 2004

Mercedes: We'd gotten on the sailboat this morning, it had been a wonderful day. We'd been able to swim a bit, done some fishing, Pepper Jane even caught a fish of her own. Now, the dog was asleep at the front of the deck, and the boat was anchored down and all the rest for the night. I sat next to BJ above deck, and we wrapped ourselves in a blanket to watch the sun go down.
BJ: Isn't that wondrous! It had been a relaxing day and the kind you never want to end. I wasn't sure if we were staying aboard or not. Just now though, it didn't matter at all.
Mer: The sun set, and I retrieved PJ from the front of the boat. She'd be safe below deck, I loved one thing more about this sailboat than the rest of it, with the push of a button the seating area could be covered up with a mosquito net, and another button, and it became a quite comfy place to sleep. I sat behind BJ, massaged his shoulders, and kissed his back. Thank you for coming out on the boat with me this weekend BJ, I hope you're enjoying it?
BJ: PJ was below deck now, sleeping I thought. Mer sat behind me her hands massaging my shoulders. I could feel the touch of her lips on my back as she thanked me for being here with her. I tipped my head back as far as I could and told her that Yes I was enjoying myself. Are you?
Mer: Yes, indeed I am.
BJ: I brought her head down to mine and kissed her. By the end of the weekend I had recovered from whatever funk I had been in. I would be working that night? I would have to check and see when I would be working. I would be the first time since I'd knocked him out that we would meet face to face.
Ariana: I went to get the droid. He was so much better that the composite I had put together. I thanked Havana again and took him home. Mercedes and BJ were on the boat for the weekend. We hadn't heard from Kari since she had left in a huff four days ago was it now? Yes, Mer had suggested she go to a spa for 3 days and I said she should have something done with her hair. What had she been so upset about. I should get something done with mine too. I needed to change things . Aurora! She wanted to have a memorial service for Chandler soon. Just thinking about it upset me . He had died 7 months ago now and I just wanted to get on with my life. I didn't want to deal with Chandler any more. He had abandoned me and that's what I wanted to do to him! The ringing of the phone interrupted my thoughts. I didn't answer it and the machine kicked in. Chandlers voice filled the air and I cupped my hands over my mouth to stop my scream. I wasn't going to answer, I didn't want anyone to know that I was here. My tears began to flow . I threw myself onto the bed and covered my head with the pillow. Good Lord, I prayed please help me! Later, much later I listened to the message.
Aurora: Mom are you there? I want you to be involved in the plans for the service. Mom? Well call when you get this message. Bye mom.
Ariana: I had no plans to call! I left Chandler's voice to answer for me. If I changed it she would know that I had picked up her message. I couldn't deal with my daughter right now. I would have to leave my home and stay somewhere else. She would be sending Steve over here if she didn't hear from me by tomorrow. I had no intention of being here when he arrived so I packed up some things and Romeo and I transported to a small studio I used when working. Breeze had let me use it. He would always let me know if I was needed somewhere. I thought of Breeze and my tears returned anew. No one would believe that the self-confident photographer, writer Ariana Monroe would fall apart like this. What they didn't know about me could fill a book. I let myself sink into sorrow and self-pity. Then the phone rang and I jumped. I carefully picked up the cabin phone and said hello?
Ariana: I called Kari when I got back and told her what Havana had said, and asked if she wanted to try it? She would let me know before I went up again she told me . We still met for our workouts and we talked about men. I knew a lot of men in my business. I wasn't sure I was ready to do that. I hadn't finished dealing with my Chandler issues yet. I was done crying over him but I still had the anger issues. His leaving me for so long and not telling me what was wrong still stung my heart. I was beginning to let go. I wouldn't be sleeping with anything or anyone who looked anything like Chandler, ever again. I was ever so glad at this moment,that I hadn't had a son.
Kari, when , no after my, I'll have to think of a name for him, never mind that, when he comes home I'll arrange for us to double date . You get the human . Help me think of a name please. Mer, earth to Mer are you with us? Kari, could it be that Boyd James is back in town? Is that why she has gone all loopy?
Kari: It's that or the sailboat, check out that tan!
Mer: Boyd James is not in town. Boyd James is in my loft, and PJ is absolutely loving it. You should have seen her lay down at his feet last night. OK, so PJ likes everybody and I'm the one loving it. I need a transport watch or two, and that's my next stop.
Kari: So guess what Eagle and Denz have done. They've gone and planned a party, it's the only way they could think of to help my single situation. They've invited everyone, to my house, for the party of my life. You guys will be there right?
Ariana: Of course we will ! When is it, do you know yet? Does your having him in your loft mean you have him nailed down yet Mer?
Mer: I don't think that he can be nailed down, it means his neighbor trashed his house while he was gone.
Kari: You two are always doing that! One question to one person at a time please!!!! I have no idea when they've got it planned for, it is driving me insane.
Ariana: She really trashed it? Maybe he should go to Patrick and use some of that Cash power of his to fix her wagon? Was that really me saying that? Sometimes I don't believe me lately.
Kari hon, relax I'm sure you won't have to do a thing except look beautiful.
Mer: Yea, really Kari. What has gotten into you Ariana? You're not exactly sounding like yourself.
Kari: That's easy for the two of you to say, look beautiful. The two of you are the only girls I've ever met who spend less than an hour making themselves look good.
Ariana: Listen Kari, your not exactly ugly you know. You just need a little twiking is all . Isn't that right Mer?
Mer: I rolled my eyes, Kari, go to the spa tonight. Stay there for three days, and when you come back, you'll be beautiful again.
Ariana: While your there have them do something with your hair. Just start putting a few surprises into your life. Kari , are you coming with me when I go to pick him up? Oh, and what about that name. Did you think of one yet?
Kari: Romeo. I've never had to put surprises into my life, stuff always just happens! Fine, I get the point Ariana, I look like SHIT! Is there anything else I should get fixed while I'm gone? I waited a moment, and left them on the track. I found the number for the spa, and went. The girls had really not helped my self-esteem, but this trip to the spa had helped, even if only physically. I got home, and called for Breeze, and then remembered that he wasn't here. I was losing it, I hadn't experienced the anger until this moment. And when Eagle walked through the door I screamed at him; God Damn it Breeze- you promised you'd never leave me behind! And then I collapsed on the floor where I stood, and began sobbing again.
Eagle: The house seemed lonely some how when I drove up. I saw Kari's car and knew she must be there so I just walked in. She was standing in the hall near dad's hat which still hung there on the hat rack. The next thing I knew she was on the floor. I ran to her and held her. I tried to calm her, she was shaking,trembling. My mind went back to when I had first walked in the door. She swore at me, God Damn it Breeze, you promised you'd never leave me behind! I told her I was sorry, so sorry. I helped her to her feet then carried her to the couch and set her down. I grabbed the afghan from the back of a chair and wrapped it around her and then sat next to her and held her.
Kari: I'm sorry Eagle, I can't do this without him! I tried, and I just can't. I don't want help, I just want it all to end. Seriously, what in the hell am I supposed to do with all of this? Skin treatments, hair cuts, manicures, pedicures, Horses, a ranch, a cabin or two, three or four alternate mansions, the boats, the plane, and all of the things he has in them? I've been trying to go though just this one house for seven years, and his hat is still waiting for him near the front door. I never asked for any of this! I'm leaving, I sighed, no I'm not. I can leave, but I'd only be leaving everyone wondering if I even care, I could die, but I care too much. I can stay around, but no matter what I can't win. How could he leave me here to look after everyone? Me! I'm not anything spectacular, I wasn't made for this kind of thing; I've got the wrong stuff inside of me! I wouldn't be surprised to hear that I'm a manic depressive freak!
Eagle:I spoke in a low soft voice to her. Kari , Breeze didn't think that you were nothing special. You were very special to him and no you weren't my mother but he never expected you to be. He loved you! He didn't really care about most of the things he had . He loved flying, most of the time he used his transporter. The point is, the only reason things were important was because of the pleasure they brought others. The things that happened here in this house were more important than the property itself.
I know that he would have moved heaven and earth to be here with you if he could . He knew that you would be able to carry on for not just him but yourself. Aunt Ariana, loves you too. She's told me that if it weren't for you she wouldn't be able to handle things. I love you and so does the rest of the family. I wish there were some way I could make things easier for you and so does Denz. We just need you to tell us.
Kari: I want, to not have all this stuff! If I could just get through all of it, there has to be a way to go through everything, without losing my mind.
Eagle : If that's what you want we can do it. You can auction most of it off. I'm sure his fans would -love to take it off your hands.
Kari: You're right, they would. I can do it right online as I go through it, have you done that before?
Eagle : No, I usually just call Ell and she takes care of it. No matter what it is. Except your party we are doing that.
Kari: You take advantage of that woman, and I can't believe she allows it! When is this party anyway?
Eagle : I know I do, but that is her job to keep me happy and productive and to get rid of my problems. She is wonderful at it and soon she will be part of the family not sure when they are getting married but, sometime. Date for the party -were still working on that . We have a bit of juggling to do before we firm up a date. Kari would you like to come home with me tonight? You are always welcome you know. What do you say? Yes?
Kari: Not tonight hon, I need to get started on this before I lose the will to actually do it.
Eagle: Your sure? I could call home and let Mari know I'll be late if you want some help with things here. I think I was supposed to invite you to dinner. I think that's why I came, I mean. If you ever feel the need to scream or rant at dad Kari, I'll be a stand in as long as I get a kiss on the cheek every now and then. I bent and gave her a kiss.
Kari: I'm sure, in fact, it might even be better if all of you came over here, Cook needs something to do, and well it's been too long.
Eagle: I called Mari from my phone. Excusing myself and going to another room, I explained what was happening here. I hope it won't cause to much trouble with your plans, Mari.
Mari: Eagle, is she ok? No trouble, I'll have cook send the food down to the shelter, and we'll be on our way in a few minutes.
Eagle: She's hanging on and seems a bit stronger now but, she could just be putting up a front for me. Thanks Mari, I love you so much. Bye.
Mari: Come on kids, change in plans, get your socks and shoes on, we're going to gramma's house. I told the cook what to do with the food, and called the shelter to let them know it would be on it's way. By the time I got off the phone, the kids were ready to go, this must be the fastest they've ever gotten ready to go anywhere; even Chablis had put her shoes on. We drove over, and the kids were in the house before I was out of the car!
I hoped that Eagle had stopped Chablis before she attacked Kari.
Eagle: Chablis came running non-stop through the door and I knew what that meant. I managed to catch her just before she reached her garms. I swung her up into the air on her way to the ceiling and caught her on the way down gently setting her in front of Kari. She hugged her Grandma and then wanted to fly again. Sorry I told her only one per customer, which meant I would have to do this three more times. I would have sore arms tomorrow I thought. My children were getting too big for this. Pandora would be thirteen this year!
Mari: I walked in to see Eagle swinging the children around, and there was only one child out of the five of them that was small enough still to do it. EAGLE! Put him down now, before you put your back out! I gave Kari a hug, and we got the kids calmed down.
Eagle: Happily, for the kids I had just finished catching the last one-Hunter. It would probably be the last time I would do this for them. Now they were calm for the moment any way. River started to talk about food , Hunter wanted to go horseback ridding , Chablis wanted to dance around-twirling queen and Pandora was being the perfect guest. I loved my life.

Thursday, March 25, 2004

BJ: Mr. Pen turned and noded at us and waved. I put my arm around Mer's shoulders and we walked. I am sorry for behaving like a total nut case. Forgive me? May I bunk with you?
Mer: Of course I forgive you. You may bunk with me for as long as you so desire. When we arrived at my place, the dog sitter had just finished walking PJ, and I let her leave. (not finished but add more if you want ma)
BJ: For as long as I so desire? Well that will take some thinking about Mer.
I chuckled and put my things where instructed. I had just run out of steam. I sat in one of the comfortable chairs she had in the living area and PJ curled up at my feet. The phrase man and his dog ran through my mind. I thought about my life in Chicago, I missed it. I had given Keely rent for the whole year before I left . She wouldn't have to rent the place and I might want to go back sometime. I had really liked the station and the people there. I would miss Caroline"s continued efforts to leave me with cold showers and I'd miss Keely too. Mer was here though, just a few steps away.
Mer: I entered the living area, and saw that PJ had indeed layed down at his feet. She had already commandeered one of his old T-shirts for her bed, when I first got her. I smiled, and asked BJ if he'd like some slippers and a newspaper? I sat next to PJ on the floor, facing the two of them and put my hand on BJs leg, what are you pondering?
BJ: I'm pondering the universe and all that is in it. Nither thank you, to the newspaper and the slippers. I was thinking about Chicago-and everyone.
I was growing quite fond of your grand daughters. They are probably glad to be rid of me and my latte. Why, what are you pondering?
Mer: I was just thinking how handsome you look in that chair, and about whether we should watch a movie or not.
BJ: If you want we can watch a movie . I promise to try and stay awake and you can poke me if I snore . Which one is it?
Mer: It's supposed to be funny, can't remember the name of it. I have yet to hear you snore, I put PJ to bed, and returned to the floor in front of BJ to watch the movie, I hoped it would be funny, but I doubted it. BJ started to fall asleep, and before he did, I helped him get into bed. The next morning, it was time to meet the girls and work out.
BJ: Mer had let me sleep in. I took my shower, pulled on my shorts a sleeveless shirt and went for my run and at the end of it would be my latte.
Ariana: I somehow got in touch with Havana. I asked her how to deal with the droid and brought him with me when we met. I told her about his changing faces and how he was able to feed my memories back to me through thought. I told her that he wasn't like making love with my husband . That he took my wants,fantasies and realities,desires and mixed them up when we made--had sex. His only refusal came when I wanted to kiss. He would not kiss my mouth, I told her. I don't know how to treat him in my everyday life. I feel uncomfortable shutting him down. In fact I haven't . I don't want him to look like my dead husband. I asked if he could change body type and height etc. I also told her that I wasn't sure I wanted him to look like just one man and if that was possible. He has never spoken to me through words, ever. Should I just treat him as a man? A boyfriend a room mate? Or as a toy that I put away when I'm done with him. He isn't real, I asked her, is he? If I should find someone ? I shouldn't loan him to anyone, should I? I almost did once. I know it is a lot to ask but I need to know . He just seems so real Havana and I don't want to hurt him.
Havana: Ariana, I'll need to run some tests. I asked my assistant to get me the equipment, which I specified. I then pricked his finger, and waited for blood, or biofluid. It was the proper biofluid, which I had tested. I ran a check on his programming, and addressed the issues that Ariana had with him. If she needed any physical changes, the android should under NO circumstances change in any way on his own. If you find someone else, bring the android here, and we will deal with it. Perhaps loaning him out is not the best idea, but as time goes on, kinks can be worked out. If he shows signs of violence, jealousy, or refuses to allow himself to be deactivated, let me know.
If change is what you really want, I would better recommend a ceriton man. There are a number of bars here that would certainly fill what ever needs you and your friend you were thinking of loaning this to- may have. And I will leave you with these birth control/mating control patches in case you decide to take my advice.
Ariana: Havana, This is what I would like him to look like-I had mixed Russ , Rhett and Kitt together and come up with what I wanted in my man. Can you change him to fit? Do you really , I'll think seriously about what you suggested . But I really don't care to be torn apart by a female cat in heat. You know what I mean, don't you?
Havana: Well, things should be safe now, May is over with. Jackie doesn't allow blood in her bar outside of May.
Ariana: Blood- thanks. It all sounded like more trouble than I wanted to be involved in. I wasn't 12 after all!
Havana: I thought that it may just be time for me to head to the bar myself. As the Doctor, I was pretty much guaranteed to not find a mate; at least not until I was near death!
Ariana: When will he be ready I asked her and will we still be able to inter act through thought? I want that. I liked most everything about him. Is there a real person like him?
I don't believe there is, but it is possible, minus the shut-off option. i should have him ready in a couple of days.
Ariana : Thank you for your patiance, I appreciate it.
I leaned across the table and kissed her yes it will! You want to meet at my place? We can figure things out from there. Alright?
Mer: That sounds perfect, should I get someone to watch PJ, or bring her with me?
BJ: This was where I ran into a wall, in my mind . I didn't know how I felt about PJ. Would you mind finding someone to watch her? She may have made up her mind about me but I'm still working on that one.
Mer: It's fine, she'll get over it. So I should get going, so I can drop off Pepper at the sitter before I go shopping.
BJ: Mer left with PJ. She was upset and I knew it . Right now I didn't care. I knocked on The neighbors door and she threw herself at me planting a kiss full on my mouth and I thought she was trying to undo my jeans. My hand went automatic to my wallet , but she was fiddling with the metal buttons of my fly. I pushed her off of me . My key is the only thing I'm here for I said to her. She was acting like we were lovers ! Oh she said , I didn't . I thought you were someone else. Maybe you should look first! I would like to talk to you about buying your condo, but perhaps this is a bad time. If you would like to sell , just drop your suggested price in my box. I'll be sure to get it . Thanks!
Mer: I wasn't upset about leaving PJ at the sitter, I understood. Now, when I got over to BJ's place, he was upset. What's wrong BJ?
BJ: Oh! Nothing!
Mercedes: I decided that this I would let go. If he wanted to talk about it, he would. I looked around, and thought to myself that this was definitely not his style.
BJ: This place stinks I wonder if-nothing looks the same. It's filthy. I left it clean! I don't even want to be here! I picked up my pack and walked out the door. I pounded on the door next to mine.. When she answered I told her to forget it . I withdraw my offer. And if you have any other keys made for my door I would advise You to get them back. You have until tomorrow evening and I want the furniture gone. Take the bed too if you want it just get it all out!! Do you hear me? Oh, and don't you ever touch me again-ever! Do we understand each other? I picked up my bag and headed down the street. Calabrese's was just ahead of me and there was a man in the door. I was just dying to hit someone.
Mercedes: BJ was extremely angry, in fact; I had never seen him this angry. He had just picked up his bag and taken off down the street. I took another look around and realized that the place was absolutely disgusting. The neighbor had the only keys to the place, and he might be against hitting a woman, but I wasn't morally obligated not to. I had heard him yelling at her. I went over to her and asked her just exactly who she thought she was? You had the only keys to his home, and you completely destroyed the place! She was mumbling something, I just walked away. I went after BJ, who it seemed was just about to pummel an innocent bystander.
BJ: As I got closer I could tell that it was an older man. He smiled at me, said good evening BJ, it's been a long time since I see you . You back from long trip now , you stay? I took a deep breath and slowly let it out. Evening Mr. Pen yes , yes, it is a long time . This, I looked around for Mercedes. She was just catching up with me. Mr Pen I would like you to meet my dear friend Mercedes. Mercedes, Mr. Pen we often meet here. Best meat in town. Yes it is, Mr Pen agreed. Good evening you two. You always look much more like lovers than dear friends. Was his remark and he left us.
Mer: BJ introduced me to a sweet old man, and hearing him say that--it was strange. I looked to BJ for his reaction.
BJ: Your absolutely correct Mr. Pen I told him. You are a very intuitive man.
Kari: It appeared that I was the only one of the trio who didn't have a lover of some sort. It stunk! I needed to meet someone, but how in the heck did an old lady like me go about doing that? Maybe Eagle or Denz Jr. knew, they certainly were pushing the whole thing lately. No, Ariana, I don't think so. I just couldn't. I called Eagle, and Denzel Jr., it was time to try and get a start on this whole dating thing, especially since I couldn't bring myself to share Ariana's android husband, that was just too wierd. Help!

Denz Jr.: Mom, I don't know. I called Eagle, mom had already called him, maybe he had a clue what this was all about! Eagle, what's mom talking about? Is she asking us to set her up with someone?
Eagle : In a word Denz Yes! I'm just so far out of the loop now that I don't think I would be much help.
Denz jr.: Great. I don't know how to get her 'in the loop' I'm still trying to get out of it!
Eagle : Are you truly trying to get out ? I didn't try, I went kicking and screaming. At one point or other. I just don't know where to tell her to go or what to do. I just assumed she knew but didn't want to.
Denz: Well, I don't know. Didn't your dad leave instructions for her care?
Eagle : No, he never thought he was going to die. Ever I don't think. Breeze just lived. He always made things seem so natural and easy. I don't think, I know that she doesn't have to work ever and she owns that big place of theirs and a lot of other things and places. I just don't know what all he had. Your mom and the lawyer and maybe Aunt Ariana-she is having her own problems now . I don't know what to do for her. Did your dad-no I guess not hum?
Denz: No, dad didn't. Maybe she should just throw a huge party? I'm sure there must be tons of men interested. What better way for her to meet them?
Eagle: Yes, that is a great idea. With all the people we know and they knew , there must be someone - a lot of someones.
Denz: Well then, I suggest we get to work finding guests, and a time and location all that junk, I'll just come over there, I'll be there in about an hour
Eagle : Sounds good we'll be waiting for you.

Denz: I got over to Eagle and Mari's, and we planned this thing out. After the planning we went about the team effort of inviting people to come to it.
Eagle: Mari ? Would Po and Hennesy have any good prospects? The Whale attracts a lot of men and women now. Never mind I don't think she wants a gambler or womanizer.
BJ: I couldn't believe how quickly the week went by. When Mer asked if I would like to go sailing this summer, the answer was a definate Yes. I would be home sometime in June. Unless something came up, but I would go sailing.

Mer: I spent all of May getting PJ and the sailboat ready for a summer filled with sailing. PJ absolutely loved being on the boat, and I even got her trained to 'go' while out on the water. I took some friends out a couple of times, but when Steven spent the night on the boat with me, I needed to give him a reality check. He thought that this was a green light for him to advance. I showed him the red light, You are sleeping out here, alone. The only man I have any desire to be with is BJ, and if you can't handle that, get off my boat!
When BJ showed up on the pier, I nearly jumped out of the boat, PJ had actually done it! I went with the dingy to meet up with PJ and BJ on shore.
BJ: I waved at her when I saw them. One hand on my wallet. Then PJ jumped out of the boat and was swimming for shore. She had gotten a lot bigger since I'd last seen her but, she seemed to remember me. She came right to me and I helped her onto the dock.
Mer: Hey, PJ. How about waiting for me? Hi BJ, did you just get back home today? I gave him a big hug, and put PJ on her leash.
BJ: Well -in the early morning hours, yes. You have been busy, haven't you? I have to brave the next door neighbor for my key. Haven't put my armor on yet. I stayed at Skyler's . Yes, I did get some sleep. I could use a latte though?
Mer: Latte'. I knew I forgot to figure something out! Let's go get some coffee. We walked over to a nearby shop, and got ourselves some caffeine. How I'd do it on the boat was still in question, but not to worry. Well, I'll be heading to the grocery store in a bit, what's the next stop for you, will you be putting armor on to go get your key?
BJ: I'll have to do you think I should let her seduce me-Don't answer that it doesn't matter I don't intend for that to happen. I am, however thinking of buying her out.
Mer: Well, that's a thought. Certainly it would make for more privacy if you did.
I leaned across the table and kissed her yes it will! You want to meet at my place? We can figure things out from there. Alright?
Mer: That sounds perfect, should I get someone to watch PJ, or bring her with me?
BJ: This was where I ran into a wall, in my mind . I didn't know how I felt about PJ. Would you mind finding someone to watch her? She may have made up her mind about me but I'm still working on that one.
Mer: It's fine, she'll get over it. So I should get going, so I can drop off Pepper at the sitter before I go shopping.
BJ: Mer left with PJ. She was upset and I knew it . Right now I didn't care. I knocked on The neighbors door and she threw herself at me planting a kiss full on my mouth and I thought she was trying to undo my jeans. My hand went automatic to my wallet , but she was fiddling with the metal buttons of my fly. I pushed her off of me . My key is the only thing I'm here for I said to her. She was acting like we were lovers ! Oh she said , I didn't . I thought you were someone else. Maybe you should look first! I would like to talk to you about buying your condo, but perhaps this is a bad time. If you would like to sell , just drop your suggested price in my box. I'll be sure to get it . Thanks!
Mer: I wasn't upset about leaving PJ at the sitter, I understood. Now, when I got over to BJ's place, he was upset. What's wrong BJ?
BJ: Oh! Nothing!
Mercedes: I decided that this I would let go. If he wanted to talk about it, he would. I looked around, and thought to myself that this was definitely not his style.
BJ: This place stinks I wonder if-nothing looks the same. It's filthy. I left it clean! I don't even want to be here! I picked up my pack and walked out the door. I pounded on the door next to mine.. When she answered I told her to forget it . I withdraw my offer. And if you have any other keys made for my door I would advise You to get them back. You have until tomorrow evening and I want the furniture gone. Take the bed too if you want it just get it all out!! Do you hear me? Oh, and don't you ever touch me again-ever! Do we understand each other? I picked up my bag and headed down the street. Calabrese's was just ahead of me and there was a man in the door. I was just dying to hit someone.
Mercedes: BJ was extremely angry, in fact; I had never seen him this angry. He had just picked up his bag and taken off down the street. I took another look around and realized that the place was absolutely disgusting. The neighbor had the only keys to the place, and he might be against hitting a woman, but I wasn't morally obligated not to. I had heard him yelling at her. I went over to her and asked her just exactly who she thought she was? You had the only keys to his home, and you completely destroyed the place! She was mumbling something, I just walked away. I went after BJ, who it seemed was just about to pummel an innocent bystander.
BJ: As I got closer I could tell that it was an older man. He smiled at me, said good evening BJ, it's been a long time since I see you . You back from long trip now , you stay? I took a deep breath and slowly let it out. Evening Mr. Pen yes , yes, it is a long time . This, I looked around for Mercedes. She was just catching up with me. Mr Pen I would like you to meet my dear friend Mercedes. Mercedes, Mr. Pen we often meet here. Best meat in town. Yes it is, Mr Pen agreed. Good evening you two. You always look much more like lovers than dear friends. Was his remark and he left us.
Mer: BJ introduced me to a sweet old man, and hearing him say that--it was strange. I looked to BJ for his reaction.
BJ: Your absolutely correct Mr. Pen I told him. You are a very intuitive man.

Wednesday, March 24, 2004

2196 July 6 Jane dies at work, Jon finds her.
August 4 Graduation, end of summer and birthday party for Tyler and Dominic--Snow left party at 12:30- found raped (Snow of Snow, Rain and Wind)
September 9 Jordan Winters born to Tod and Prism Winters (boy)
2198 April 13 Friday= Jim and DeDe wed.
2196 June 8 Jacob Miller born to Jake and Angelic

Star Simpson
2083 8 - 5
2079 Jared - Jackie
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2081 February 13 Taylor and Phillip Damien
2080 November 24 Catalina
2183 February 10 Rhett Miller
2192 Arizona attempts to have Whitney killed, Jon to the rescue with sister Penny. Also attempts to frame Prism and Tod with drugs.
2193 Jury gets braces
2196 March 22 Laura and Rick Dupont wed.
2195 Aust(en/in?) has Jake's baby girl
2265 June 13 Ariel Miller dies
2266 August 5 Annie Turner and Davis Mark
2160 Chantel and James Angelo Delfini wed.
2267 March 1 Avery Conway dies
2264 August 4 Claudia Mark dies
2230 June 10 Jacob Miller and Ellen wed.
2231 July 2 Brett Miller born
Ariana: I had spent a month thinking about what I would do-tell my daughter and grandson, or pretend that the android was Chandler. I had to do something I could no longer leave things the way they were. I would wait until after Christmas, then I would hope that they would forgive me. I would have to run that horrid tape for Aurora at least. Blake should be old enough to see it and I would insist upon it. Sometimes I forgot that children grew up. I was weeping again. What would I do about that android? I would keep him. Yes, I would keep him. On December 28, 2406 I brought together our lawyer, my daughter's family and Eagle and let them watch it, the whole horrid thing. I had our lawyer keep it in a safe place . Should there be any questions, legal questions. I apologized for not telling them sooner and for not wanting to talk about any of it now . I can't was the answer I gave them.
2406 November 23 Chandler Harper died.

I had changed my mind for the fifth time now . I wanted this to be the last time. I took a deep breath and called Rhett . I asked if he would arrange to have chandeliers ashes sent to our daughter and then I asked that he destroy this android - please . I don't know who else to trust to do it I said to him and if it's too much to ask......I'll try to find another way. I will try never to bother you again Rhett. I couldn't say anything else, so I didn't.
Rhett: You must be absolutely sure of this Ariana. Once the android is destroyed, there is no changing your mind. I will do it, and you needn't worry about bothering me. The video didn't tell you that he could be deactivated until a later time, and brought up to date on things from your mind. I'm sure that his appearance could be changed also if you wanted. If in three days, you still want this done, let me know, until then here are the directions for deactivating him.
After talking with Rhett I was again unsure . Three days ! Right this minute I just felt like running away.
Rhett: I called her three days later, and asked her what she had decided to do with it.
Ariana: I've decided to keep it Rhett, but if anything happens to me . I die , I want you to destroy it . You can do that for me can't you? Will you ? Thank you and if I have problems with him will he fix himself?
Rhett: All depends on the problem, if there are any, or you need his appearance fixed, you should see Havana to take care of it, she'll know what to do. As for the destruction upon your death, I can handle that.
Ariana: After he finished , I forgot myself and through my arms around him in a hug and thanked him again. Right after that I remembered myself and apologized backing away from him. Later on, I thought he was probable used to it. I imagined lots of women would like to be in his arms. I thought about the android and changed my mind I couldn't do that! That would be too dangerous! I decided that I was reaching the point where I was vulnerable to most any man who showed me a kindness. I also realized that I would have given myself to Rhett. I had better get over this real quick!
I opened the closet doors. Then sat on our bed, MY bed now, and looked at the android. He didn't look real any more. Rhett had been right about taking the time to decide. This droid could be any man I wanted him to be or thought I wanted him to be. When I was in school Kitt and I went together for a long time. I thought, I used to be such a proper young woman . Used to be! I still was. Look, I told myself , how you just behaved with Rhett ! That was respect! I shouted out loud. I looked at the android once again and wondered who I wanted him to be . Not my husband, I didn't think I had forgiven him yet . I had tried though. I thought about my friends -Kari , I didn't want to think of our loss. Mercedes, she had her love, and I imagined her with him. I looked back to the android sitting on the floor of my closet. All I had to do was activate him and bring him up to date with my mind. That's what Rhett had said. I activated him and brought him up to date with my memories of our love making. He seemed to want more memories of it deeper ones. I could feel them coming to life . I couldn't stop myself . This was like nothing I had ever felt before and I let him touch me and felt myself come alive. It wasn't like Chandler, I hadn't been with anyone else! There was a change in him as my mind had switched gears and then it was all coming back to me my memories, my wants . He was feeding them back to me and I lost myself in him, again and again and again. I lay in the arms of this android, wet with sweat and sex and slept.
When I finally woke he was kissing me. I thought I must have triggered something in the droid. I couldn't stop what I was feeling, what the kisses were doing to me. He never kissed my lips but he didn't have to.
I finally got up and out of bed . The thing was, I didn't know what to do with him. His face would change when he thought I had tired of it. I went to take a shower and he seemed ready to follow, no , I said in a voice I hardly recognized as my own and he stayed where he was. His thoughts however didn't, please stop I whispered and he did. I now had no idea what he was thinking. I dressed and called Kari , I told her -the truth- I'm such a bad lier she would have known. Then I asked if she would like to borrow him.
BJ: Florence was ready when I got there and excited to be going. Florence was an intern at the station . Tall and a little on the heavy side -voluptuous. She looked absolutely lovely and I told her so. She told me that I cleaned up very well. My usual attire being chinos and sweatshirt. Florence enjoyed the whole experience,beginning to end. We had a late dinner and I took her home. If things had been different - no, it would have been the same. I would have done just what I was doing now. I kissed her lightly on the mouth and said good night. It was 3 am. I had time to go home and change and go to work. I couldn't even remember how close Christmas was any more.
BJ: I was tired when I walked in the door. I went to the latte machine and hit the switch and continued with my usual routine. When I came out for the latte, Caroline was there with Mercedes talking about cookies. I smiled at both of them telling Mer she had been very good last night. I left them with their cookie making and went in to take my shower. I knew Mer would keep Caroline out of my room so I didn't bother to lock it. When I came back out I was clean-shaven skin pampered and lip balmed. Feeling alive once again and dressed in T-shirt tucked into my Levi jeans and my cowboy boots on my feet. I asked Caroline for another cup of latte and maybe I could have a couple of cookies too? Then I turned to Mercedes , I would like you to take a walk with me in a while. Will you come?
Mercedes: Sure, I will BJ. (I didn't know what I'd be doing after we finished with the cookies and whatnot anyways, and I don't know what I was thinking last night, of course he had a date!)
BJ : I was prepared for her to say no but she hadn't. I took a couple of cookies, my latte and went in to get some sleep until they were done. Just knock or something when your ready- K?
Mer: In about 3 hours, we were done. Keely had a huge oven! We cleaned up whatever mess we had made, and I went and knocked on BJs door
BJ: I'm up I mumbled and went to splash some water on my face. When I came out the door I was ready to go . We said nothing at first just walked . After a while I asked her what had been wrong last night. I could tell there was something, I told her, so she might as well tell me.
Mer: You must be the only one who noticed. I got a call from Kari, PJ was having some problems, everything's alright now.
BJ: For half a second I wondered if I should let her get away with that answer and decided -no. I could let that go, I said to her but I know better. If there was something wrong with that dog you wouldn't hesitate to grab a transport right after the concert. It was me, wasn't it Mer? I'm ssooo sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. I lifted her face to mine and kissed her. How long will you be here and will you stay with me in my bed while you are here? The other thing I would like to know is how uncomfortable have we made Keely? I just want to be with you I said as I kissed her.
Mer: He really did know me too well. Another week, I'll be here. Of course I will, and Keely is fine, she's much more comfortable with minding her own business than Joe.
BJ: It's just that it is her home. Oh , Mercedes, don't you understand that I do need to ask. What kind of a man just assumes that a famous, beautiful-now don't say a word Mer-woman will just sleep with him because he wants her to. Especially if he has made no promises to her? I never expect you to have waited around for me. Every time you go on tour, I fully expect that you will have found someone else. Please Mer, if you want me to be with you at your concert tell me so ahead of time. Other wise I will always have bought tickets to your shows and I honestly will not be going alone. Enough of this! What are the plans for Christmas. I will be at work until the usual time. That should give everyone some family time without me around. If you have any thing you want to ask me, now is the time Mer.
Mer: BJ-he didn't want me argue his first point, and in reality I couldn't. I know BJ, I knew you'd have tickets, and I knew you'd have someone with you; and I should have been thinking better. But BJ, I always want you with me; PJ's a great dog, but she isn't you; and neither are any of the men I've seen this past year. Dinner should be all ready at 5 that evening. I don't know what to ask you BJ, I really don't.
BJ: Just remember you have to let me know. You may change your mind and you may not. I will never take how you feel for granted. We went and had dessert as we watched the skaters on the pond, from the warm inside cafe.
Mer: That was one of the reasons I loved him, no, there had been more than one reason in that conversation. He didn't take me for granted, and he hadn't made any promises. We watched the skaters on the pond, and ate our desserts in the comfort of the indoor cafe.
Keely: It was a little strange having grams stay "with" BJ, but it was fine with me, I don't butt into people's business, and since BJ was renting the extra room, it went double for him. It helped that I knew grams was old enough to take care of herself. Christmas morning, we had breakfast, did the whole stocking thing, and opened the gifts we had bought each other. Well, all except one, which we normally waited until after dinner to open. Grams and Caroline had made enough snack food to last a year, and so lunch was a non issue.
Mercedes: I felt like I had spent the entire morning in the kitchen, but dinner was in the oven, and Keely could handle the rest. I went directly to the shower, after making sure BJ's latte' would be ready for him when he got in the door.
BJ: I got home the usual time and same routine, except my latte was ready. I grabbed a few cookies and my latte , heading straight for our room and the shower. I hadn't seen anyone on my in so the merry Christmas I had ready on my lips was saved until I saw Mer. She was just about to come out of the shower as I was coming in. I said my merry Christmas and we took my shower. You still smell of cookies and food or is that just the aromas finding their way into our room? I Wanted to just hold her for?? I didn't know how long but, I had gifts to give. I put myself together although I had no idea what to put on? Help Mer.
Mer: I helped, I handed him my favorite pair of his jeans, and a nice t shirt. I put my own clothes on, and we had dinner, after which came the final gift giving event. BJ had in front of him (still wrapped) the cuff links, a new wallet, and the upgrade for his latte machine. The cuff links were from me, the wallet from Caroline, and the upgrade from Keely. I'd give him the other gift later on that evening.
BJ: They had bought me gifts . I hadn't expected that they would. I loved everything I was given and I hugged and kissed them all Caroline too. Then I gave them theirs / Caroline the the running shoes and dance certificate for two - Keely the one day a month for 12 months at the head to toe place and the ruby earrings. Lastly I gave Mercedes the necklace. The dark emerald in the tear shape with the three diamonds leading to the emeralds and diamonds that would circle her neck. and I held my breath while they opened them.
Keely: I was speechless, as was Caroline.
Mercedes: BJ, it's beautiful. I thought I may have a heart attack it was so beautiful. I watched as Keely and Caroline thanked BJ with hugs, and then I kissed him, thank you BJ. There was hot chocolate, and more cookies, and then Caroline decided it was time to watch the TV movies that were on every year. I don't know about you, but I need some sleep. I said my good nights, pulled on some Pajamas and climbed into bed for the night. I had made sure to put the jewels in a safe place, Caroline might be my great grand-daughter, but she couldn't be trusted. I'd take a run tomorrow, it had been a week since I had run anywhere!
BJ: I kissed Mercedes goodnite and let her go to sleep, I knew that I was past that now and she was truly tired. I stayed up and watched movies . I never seemed to tire of some. Keely and I compared one version of a movie to it's others. What we liked better and Caroline would shush us with, I'm trying to here this. I took Keely aside and offered to replace the rubies with a different stone if she would prefer. I knew some women weren't fond of the deep red color and I wanted her to be happy. I thanked her again for the update to my latte machine, it had been the perfect gift. I could feel the cuff links in my pocket and smiled. I sat down at the table after retrieving my wallet and jacket from our room and locking it. I also stashed my new links. I removed the cardboard, plastic and paper from the new wallet and began to transfer things to it. Everything fit extremely well. There would be room for a picture or two also. The old one I tossed into the wastebasket, the new one into one of the front pockets of my jeans. I whispered merry Christmas to the house one last time before locking up. I was off to work.
Mercedes: I woke up about 10, and at 11 am I was ready to do my run. I ran for the better part of an hour, and after getting lost, I finally ended up back at Keely's and met BJ in the shower, the next week I spent there, felt like a gift. I didn't want to leave, but PJ was home, missing me, and all the other bull. BJ, would you consider joining me on the sailboat sometime this summer?

Monday, March 22, 2004

2406 December Mercedes: I packed up my things and headed for Chicago, P.J. would be with Kari, and I had a benefit concert to do while I was there visiting Keely and Caroline. I was glad that her pull-out sofa was comfortable, she always had her spare room rented out to someone or other. I walked up to the door, and was greeted with a hug, and a swift hand to my pocket as I entered the door. Caroline, give that back now I told her. She did so, and went to get Keely.
I wondered who was cooking if Keely was upstairs, and went to the kitchen. BJ! What are you doing here? I mean, are you-- Keely came into the kitchen, and realized that we already knew each other. I wouldn't be able to get into the hotel until tomorrow night, and so I had pushed it back until Wednesday evening, I'd check in before the benefit. Keely! I gave her a big hug, ready to go shopping? I need a new dress, and some Christmas gifts for everyone. Caroline, Keely and myself went shopping. I found a dress to match my favorite earrings, and then I went ahead with spending on the girls. Keely needed shoes, clothes, makeup, and just stuff in general, so I bought a bunch of gift certificates. For Caroline, I bought some clothes, a couple of albums, and decided to pay for her trip to the ranch that summer. The dog was easy, just had to find a pretty collar and lead for her. BJ, well. That was another story entirely; I'd have to write his gift when we got back to Keely's house. I was up nearly all night going through all the little notes and things I had written down, I woke to find a note from Keely telling me where to find all the papers I had fallen asleep in. Keely had gone to work for the morning, and it didn't seem that I was the last one up, so I made breakfast. I could finally relax about gifts and stuff, it was all finished. I had gotten three tickets for the benefit concert, prepared for the house guest (renter) to come too. I left BJ's ticket with his plate, and the same with Caroline's. I went out onto the porch and sat down with my food. I could only imagine what had been going on while he was gone, and I didn't like it. I wasn't normally jealous, but he was living with my grand-daughter, and I couldn't see anything but the two of them together in bed when I closed my eyes. I wished I had just taken the stay at the hotel when Ell offered it. I could have been spared this agony. Too bad I hadn't known he was here before I came.

BJ: I knew she was coming and it was obvious that she didn't know I would be here. She rushed around like a bee finally escaping with Caroline and Keely into the frenzy of Christmas shoppers. I finished cleaning up the kitchen and thought about home and family. I made all my Christmas calls, and had all my gifts wrapped -I was giving Keely - 1day a month full beauty treatment, at one of those places that take care of you top to bottom- for a year. She needed the pampering and Caroline couldn't take this from her. I was thinking of gold handcuffs for Caroline but discarded the idea. I decided to go give Caroline dancing lessons- whatever kind she wanted and if she needed a partner I would pay for them too, for a year. I had only a dim idea of what dances people were doing now but I planned to find out because that is what I decided I would give myself for Christmas -Ballroom and beyond. Mercedes? I had found a gorgeous deep green emerald necklace
the emerald was in the shape of a tear drop and there were three diamonds above it leading to the chain of diamonds and emeralds that would encircle
her neck. I thought of her neck and stopped . At the last minute I had gotten Caroline a pair of running shoes. Keel, I would give a pair of ruby earrings nothing gaudy just a deep blood red. Like her lips. I knew better than to put anything under the tree. I was gone in the morning before anyone else was up. I was on air early early mornings. I had to take my runs when I could fit them in . Usually after work round 11am. I would be back at the house at noon. Which is when I came face to face with Mercedes, as I opened the door. I guess she had just returned, when I came in the door. We stood so close and she managed to look me in the face this time and said you hungry? Yes, as a matter of fact, I am, are you I asked? Where is Caroline, do you know ? I didn't wait for an answer I unlocked my door leaving it open and went in turned on the shower.
Mercedes: Caroline is busy wrapping gifts in her room, I thought about following him in, and paused at his door.
BJ: I was coming out to get my latte before taking my shower, when I saw Mercedes standing in the doorway. You said Caroline is in her room, wrapping gifts? I asked. I walked over to her put my hands on her shoulders and turned her sideways so I could squeeze by to get my latte fix. I expected Caroline to come out anytime now she usually did. She liked to talk until she figured my water was cold they go back to her room with a sandwitch or something and I would be left with a cold shower or no shower until later. It was her idea of a good time. Mercedes remained quiet and still as I returned with my latte, leaving me to squeeze by her again. I only went part-way in stopping in the middle and reached over her head and set my cup on the dresser. I bent my head down to her, the thought of playing with her, teasing her flashed through my mind but that was all it was, a flash. I didn't play games with Mer. She wanted me but she some how needed me to tell her it was alright. I kissed her and while I kissed her I pulled her to me shutting the door and locking it. Just a sec I breathed into her ear but she didn't let go of me. I managed to turn the shower off as clothes flew in all directions. I felt the urgency in her and matched it with my own. There would be no way of keeping this from her grand daughters on the other side of that door. I had never done this here in Keely's house before. She hadn't said anything about it but I hadn't. I held Mer in my arms and slept.

Caroline: I heard BJ's shower turn on, but when I got down there, it was off already, he had his coffee, and great-grams was nowhere to be found. Then I realized what was going on, and I shuddered at the thought of it. It wasn't pleasant thinking about mom having sex, much less my great grandmother! I wonder if mom knew about this? Not this precise moment, but the history of it.

Mercedes: There was no better Christmas gift than being in his arms again. I lay there in his arms until I was forced to move, it was time to get ready for work. I tried not to wake him, and made sure to lock his door behind me as I left. Keely was waiting in the Kitchen, holding my dress and bag of things I had set aside for that night. Thank you sweety. I handed her the remaining two tickets to the show, I had left one near BJ's Latte already.
Keely: Grams, I thought about asking her what was going on between them, but it wasn't any of my business, I love you, we'll be there.
Mer: I love you too Keely, the red boxes are for you and Caroline to wear tonight. I ran out the door in time to meet the Limo that would take me where I needed to go. Sound checks, make-up, hair. It seemed that they wanted me to look old. Geneva was aggravating me with her nonsense. Listen Geneva, I do not have grey hair, saggy arms, or wrinkles. I worked too hard to get rid of all that fat, you'll not see me looking old on purpose; unless I'm dead and have no control over it, End of story. James are they here yet?
Keely: I opened up the boxes that grams had directed us to wear, and nearly fainted, what in the heck! Caroline and I got ready to go, we'd take a cab these clothes were not for wearing on the bus. Grams indeed had other plans, no bus, no cab, a limo.
BJ: I woke took my shower pulled on a pair of jeans and picked up my cup. I drank the cold latte as I examined the ticket she had left for me. Her concert was tonight. I opened my door and headed for the latte, my drug of choice. I drank two cups while I mixed up the concoction I would drink instead of eating . I could hear the scurrying of women getting ready for a big date. It always made me smile . Shades of my youth Skyler always tried not to scurry and most times she succeeded . She was more tomboy than girl so the dress thing only happened rarely . That was probably why I smiled now, it was a pleasant memory. I finished my drink and went to get dressed. My tux, my new one, fit beautifully and I was ready to leave. I set the ticket Mercedes had left for me on the table. We hadn't talked at all since she had arrived, just briefly . I didn't think she would bring me a ticket, I had bought two already and would shortly be collecting my date. My life had just become very complicated again and I had made it happen. If I could just have resisted the temptation - it was pointless to think about it. I would never resist her, I didn't want to. I explained to Keely about the ticket and my date and asked that she give my apologies to Mercedes. I picked up my dress coat and left, Florance would be waiting.
Keely: I knew grams was being dumb. I should have let grams stay in the hotel, should have suggested it. I went to see Gram as soon as we got there, to let her know that BJ had already had plans to come with someone else, and didn't need his ticket. I hated the look I saw on her face, I'd seen it in the mirror so many times myself. Gram wasn't the kind of woman who made a big deal about things, and she even looked as though she had been expecting it to happen! All she did was smile at me, and tell me to go have a good time, she'd make sure Caroline got home if the need arose.
Mercedes: Keely left the dressing room, and I tossed a glass vase across the room, smashing it against one of the mirrors. I decided to wear the jewelry that had been loaned by one of the jewlers. Diamonds, lots of them. Let him think it didn't bother me, James- go and give this to someone who looks decent from the crowd of people watching everyone come in. I handed him the ticket and he went. I did my set, and when I was finished singing I went out to sit on a bench. A familiar set of hands touched my shoulders. I turned around, and saw a face I hadn't seen since I was just starting out with this business. Steven? Hey Mercedes, what troubles you? he asked. Love Steven, the one way kind. Steven did his best to take my mind off BJ, and certainly it worked. At the end of the night, Keely had met someone, and I took Caroline home. I made a call, and bought BJ a set of cufflinks, they would be silver and gold cards, and would suit his tuxedo beautifully. Christmas was friday. Caroline and I dressed up the tree, and went to bed. In the morning, I made breakfast; enough for everyone, and then lunch. Lunch was BLT sandwiches, and orange juice. Keely was home for lunch, and then she was out the door as BJ was walking in. I was cleaning up after the girls, and looking for cookie recipes, it wouldn't be Christmas without the cookies, or the fruitcake, or...
Chandler: I'd been ill. I had come here for help. There was only so much they could do for me. They could transfer everything I had ever known into a droid. They would have to find out more about Ariana for this and would have to send a ceritan to find out what they needed. I could no longer go anywhere and my memories were closing down on me. I was losing Ariana from my memories faster than I had ever thought possible . Cloning was out of the question -I would be where I was now. The youth thing -I had waited too long. I didn't want to leave her. I didn't know how and they had promised not to impregnate her or hurt her in any way. They were to explain to her or the droid would . If she rejected the idea the droid would be destroyed. I only had a short time left .......Havana! I think he is gone.
Rhett: Havana- what have you done? I now had to go back to Mercedes and Ariana, and tell Ariana that her husband was dead, and this was his choice, to replace himself with an android. She had missed the better part of a year with her husband and this was what he had left her!
I went down to see them, and broke the news, he had made a video for her, and I left it there.
Ariana: I just looked at Rhett, my tears silently sliding down my cheeks and I found myself thanking him . My husband had left me a video. There was no way I could bring myself to watch it , Before I could refuse it Rhett was gone. I looked to Mercedes hoping she would tell me what I should do. She just looked at me and then the video. I knew I would have to watch it. I chose to watch it with Mer.
Ariana: I pushed play and a man I barely recognized seemed to come to life in front of us. I began to get up to go to him when Mer's hand on my arm stopped me . As we watched he told me what had happened and ....the rest. I tried to leave and not hear it several times but Mercedes made me stay, made me face it all ! At the end the ceriton appeared the one I had seen before but, now he was older and he asked if he was more pleasing to me now . I managed to nod my head and then rushed to the toilet and threw-up. There was no way I was going to be able to face my family for thanksgiving. Not after this not tomorrow. We asked to Ceriton to leave we would let him know my discussion another time . I managed to pull myself together long enough to let my family that I wouldn't be coming something had come up and I wouldn't be around for awhile--Christmas, I wasn't sure.
I stayed at Mercedes a few more days. Then went home and packed my bags and was gone.