Pandora: I looked through my things sorting through what was important and what could be thrown out... Alexis had said that sometimes the school would hold mail from students, for whatever reason. She worked in the office and promised that she could find a way to get those letters to us, it appeared that I had a couple of my own that hadn't been delivered. There was a knock on our door, and when I answered it, it was Alexis. She carried a large basket full of mail.
Alexis: Most of this stuff is for you. I guess they don't think that you're friends should be able to contact you or something. There's some here for Diane too, I'll have to wait until next week to take Susie and Clara's out; otherwise I'll get caught.
Pandora: Thank you Alexis, I really appreciate everything you had to go through to do this for me.
Alexis: Not a problem, just let me read some of this fan mail when you're done!!!
Pandora: Well, why don't you come in, and we'll see what's here; I doubt there's any fan mail! Alexis came in the room, and we went through the letters, there was a package from Po', and a letter also. In fact, I hadn't realized that I had anyone on my side at public school, much less the ones that wrote to me!! I opened the letter and package from Po'Em, and called her immediately, apologising for the delay. I just can't believe that they would take it upon themselves to morally police my mail by sender!!
I thought you forgot about me, I'm glad I was wrong. I actually sent some papers for you yesterday. I've decided I'm going shopping for office type stuff later, so that I don't have to worry about the school getting in the way of business. I reralized I was talking to an answering machine, and got off the phone. Alexis and I looked through the rest of my mail, and then we went office shopping; Diane didn't want to come with us.

Po'em: After lunch with Hennesy we talked about business,his and mine. He refreshed my memory concerning certain people we knew who I might consider hiring. I went over,in my head everything I knew about them. In the end I made offers of employment to 3 of them, two accepted.
I still had received nothing from Pandora concerning my first letter to her. I had now waited much to long which was not at all like me. I sent her a special phone she could use to keep in touch with me. I also repeated the same message I had sent to her before, making sure to tell her this was not the first time I had tried to contact her. Then I waited, noting on the calendar the date sent.

Pandora: Homesickness was infectious. I could tell that Dianne was feeling it, but for some reason she wasn't willing to talk about it, she wouldn't even open her letters from home much less her privacy curtain. The only way I could deal with it was writing home, reading the letters everyone sent, posting up the photos and things that came in the letters. It wasn't until after Thanksgiving that Diane came out of her 'episode'. Things were so much different now that I wasn't home. Mom was working for Po' and so was Hunter; I felt I had been replaced. I hadn't thought that going away to school would be the end of my involvement in the company... I was wrong I guess. Maybe I'd have to come up with a new business all my own. I thought better of it for the time being, I had enough to do already.

Diane: I liked Pandora. The teachers were excellent as were the town and school. Everything was perfect! After a while I began to look for the fly in the ointment.
In November I started to become home-sick. I missed my family and would quietly cry myself to sleep each night. I could feel myself pulling away from the friends I'd made. I felt alone and that I was the only one feeling this way now. I installed my privacy curtain -all I had to do was tell it to open or close and it would. I began to have it closed more than open and when she asked I told Pandora I wanted to be alone.
There were people we could talk to about our problems, I just didn't want to share mine.
I felt unable to say anything. I had wanted to come so badly and insisted so long and hard that I would feel foolish admitting that I was home-sick now. We had been told that it would -could happen but, I had thought it would be right away, not now.
Any mail I received went into a drawer unopened and stayed there. I would not answer it or return calls from home.
I pinned a "I am not in" notice on my privacy curtain and I requested permission to stay on campus over the holidays. That was farther than my family was willing to go and the second Saturday in November my father came to school for a conference.
I wanted to run to him and throw my arms around his neck and beg him to take me home,never to return but, I didn't. We sat and I listened while they discussed how I was doing and then I walked my dad to the car. I broke down and told him everything. He agreed to Thanksgiving but we would discuss Christmas at a later date. I felt so much better already.
My mood improved and I became my old self again, to the relief of my friends.

Lacey: We waited and nothing happened. I hoped that it was all over, that it was just an offer and that was all.

Diane: I was finally here! When I opened the door I saw that I wasn't going to be able to pick anything. My room mate was already here. I set my bag on the empty bed . Hi, I'm Diane, I said and held out my hand. When she turned around I saw that she was very pretty, with blond hair, not dyed, perfect I thought. Everything about her was perfect and I could tell that she came from money. It wasn't rocket science and I wasn't physic . It was her luggage, as simple as that.
She shook my hand and said hi. Her name was Pandora she told me. It was quite an unusual name I told her. Your father wouldn't happen to be Eagle Monroe would he?

Pandora: He's my dad alright, wish they hadn't given me such a landmark name sometimes though. Where are you from?

Diane: I'm from Pennsylvania, the small town of ____and you? I don't really know much about ...I paused, I didn't know how to say it, so I merely said ...Your family....and hoped that she wasn't insulted.

Pandora: Somerset, Texas. We spent some time getting things set up, and getting familiar with each other. This was going to be better than I thought. I had expected that everyone would know all about both me and my family. Diane and I made all kinds of friends, and I got exactly what I wanted out of the whole thing. I took the classes I wanted, there were no rumors being spread around about me, and there was no little brother picking on me about how serious I always am.

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Po'Em: Marilyn would be starting school this year as would Chablis. I hoped that it would be an exciting adventure for them. I was excited! Pandora was going to a privet school now and I missed her. Her brother Hunter wanted to step in and take her place in the company. I did agree to listen to his ideas and if I used any of them he would be compensated.
The business had grown so much that it was getting to be to much for me to handle alone. Actually,it was past that point already. I would have to hire someone I could trust to help me run it. Pandora and I would also have to find a way to have meetings while she was at school. I needed to be able to talk to her the way we always had. I wasn't sure she could handle it in the same way as before and I wondered if she wanted to . I could buy her out or make her vice-president of special projects. That would put her out of the loop and she wouldn't have to worry about the company for long periods of time. While I still had the thought in my head I sat and wrote to her about it. She could let me know what she wanted to do, in writing.

My story books were continuing to sell, people didn't seem to tire of them. I had just finished another collection of stories and my publisher was talking about a book signing tour. He would have to wait for an answer. I would need to discuss it with Hennesy. It would require more planning now that Marilyn was in school and I wasn't sure what was happening with things on the Whale.
I called Marijuana-Hi girl, how would you like to work for me, I asked her.

Marijuana: Doing what, exactly?
Po : Helping me with advertising for my furniture company. Doing whatever your best at. After all, you went to school to learn it you might as well use it, right? We talked about other plans-things we wanted to do and what had happened that morning. When we hung-up I realized that it was time for lunch and Hennesy would be home soon. I hoped that he would be bring take-out although food was not my first thought. I would make my other calls later. The company would wait.

BJ: We ate at one of the old places near the school. Then headed home. We hadn't seen anyone we knew but, had a good time anyway. The next day , Monday, Keely found out that we would have to rearrange our dance schedule. I told her it wasn't a problem we could always figure something out. By the beginning of September our classes were over and Caroline had been back for a week or so. Now I had to remember to lock my door. The condo was finished soon after Caroline started school and they came back to Summerset to see it with me. I was very pleased with how everything had come together. The only thing missing were my personal things-clothes etc. Keely and Caroline went to visit family for the rest of the time they were here. I stayed at the condo and made a list of things I would need and began to make the place my own. I took out the pictures I had intended to hang or set on the floating shelves. I sorted through them and as often happens when people start sorting through photos I got caught up in them. I finally set the ones of Mercedes and I aside I would do something with them later. The chosen ones finally found themselves in frames -on the wall or shelf. There was one from Christmas that I would enlarge. That taken care of, I headed for the market. I would only buy enough for a few days and each time after that I would add to what I would need. It sounded like a good plan to me. I gave Keely another years rent for my room. I was comfortable there and now it felt like going home. I was given a house warming party by my friends, at my condo. We had a good time and I received some nice gifts too. My life went on pretty much as it always had, only now that Mercedes wasn't in it , I started to actually date again. In the time I had been with her I had only had two very short affairs. A few people asked if Mercedes and I had divorced. I was surprised at the number of people I would meet in the next year who believed that.

BJ: I laughed a little, you mean Caroline's behavior, don't you? I don't see why her behavior should cause you to lose your job Keely. Have you tried putting her in a private school? Catholic, maybe ? You don't have to be of that religion to go there. You could always transfer to Summerset-your job that is, if the company has a base there . You would have a bigger support base. Don't worry about that right now. The job sounds like a dream, enjoy it. Look, it's eleven now and dance class is tomorrow morning. I'm going to get ready for bed. I lightly kissed her lips if you need or want anything that's where I'll be. Keely, what I said earlier, about us- forget it . I'm fine--good night.
Keely: Oh crud, yes, that's what I meant! I couldn't believe I had mixed up myself and my daughter. Good night. I wasn't so sure he was fine, but it also didn't make sense that he would end a relationship; rather than stop the affair to begin with. Ah yes, dance class in the morning, off to bed I go!
BJ:The next morning we went to class as usual and although the reasons for taking it had changed I still enjoyed it. I felt more relaxed and at ease with myself and Keely now. We talked to our instructor about Monday's class telling him that we might have to change hours or I might need a new partner-we weren't sure yet. He nodded, and I told him I would let him know as soon as we did. He thanked us and we left. Keely, how would you like to go with me to check on how my condo is coming along. I haven't been there for a couple of days and I want to see what they have done.
Keely: Yea, it sounds like an adventure. They haven't been doing well without you being there to provide supervision have they?
BJ: No they haven't . Mom is ready at a moments notice to call in the whole Cash clan- I told her I had it under control, even laughed about it. If they screw up again though I may decide to let her handle it. Would you like to eat when we get there or before? I would like to change before we leave, something more casual I think. Do you agree?
Keely: I think it would be wise to change, it might be a good idea to eat first too.
BJ: We went home changed and ate. Keely had all kinds of food put up from her cooking -baking spree of the week before. We talked about class and the people in it. We had to find time to practice and a place. I looked at the clock and we decided to get going. We arrived in the park near my condo at 12:30. There seemed to be a lot of activity going on. Good or bad I couldn't tell yet. I turned to Keely, does it seem to you that there are way too many workers here, or is it just me? I did hire my own inspector but, I really don't know anything about it myself. Maybe I should ask uncle Henry ?
Keely: Ummm, I'd say so. How can any work get done with so many people in the way?
BJ: So that is exactly what I did. When I called I told him who I was and I appoligized for bothering them on a Sunday. Then I told him what we had discovered and what had happened the week before.
Henry: Do you have your paper work with you Boyd ? He told me that he did . I suggested that he and his friend come over to the house and we would look things over together. Then I hung up. Sarah, I walked to the door of my study and spoke to my wife. It looks as if we will be having company for dessert -two more. Do you recall my sister Grace calling a few days ago? Well, evidently Boyd does need our help. Is Aiden working or is he still up here ? I'd like him to join us,since we are having company and it is family. I can use the intercom if he is already gone.
BJ: I looked at the phone, then up at Keely. I guess we're having dessert with my uncle. Ready?
Keely: Certainly.
Sarah: I think he's still up here, I'll grab him.
Henry: Thank you Sarah I said, catching her cheek with a kiss before she left to ensnare our son. I took the time before they arrived to go over what information I had collected about Boyd's project. From what I could gather so far it all looked straight forward and not that complicated. I set the file aside, I wasn't going to worry about anything yet, there was no need. When they arrived we were just gathering in the library and after introduction, dessert was brought in the usual small talk took place. I took Boyd into the den and went over things with him.
BJ: Your more than welcome to get together with the contractor and look over the project if that will help. At this point I am completely at a loss. We went to the condo and I wandered around with Keely while uncle Henry, the contractor and the inspectors talked. After half an hour it was all sorted out. Uncle Henry seemed satisfied anyway and he would know. We all thanked him -inspectors, contractor, everyone and then he left. Keely and I now had the rest of the afternoon to ourselves and I asked her if she would like to go aboard the Whale. We could relax, practice our dancing, swim, almost do anything or we could just walk around town, talk and visit the places we used to go when we were very young.
Keely: I opted for the latter, it had been a long time since I'd been in town. We walked around, stopping to notice things that had changed, and remembering things we'd done in school.

Jared and Bridget Pierce's children were-
2361 August 25 Broderick Pierce
2363 February 23 Mason + Talia Pierce - twins
2365 November 19 Brendon Pierce
2355 April 29 Catherine Pierce
2371 ---------------Theresa Pierce

BJ: I had only been awake for two hours now. I had ended a relationship and raised holy hell when I discovered nothing was being done on the condo. I had finally ended up at my parents home. We discussed the condo problem and mom was ready to call in the whole Cash clan . Everyone from her grandpa Maxwell -her dad, her brother Henry - Aunt Savannah. Stop! Mom, please,it's alright .
Arizona: Yes, Grace please stop and don't even mention Spain and Victoria's husband. Dad was laughing and soon we all were.
Grace: I guess that would be over- kill wouldn't it she laughed.
Arizona: Your welcome to stay with us. You know that son, right?
Grace: Yes Boyd, why don't you stay here, we have room . It's been quite a while since we've had a chance to really visit with you. Please stay, won't you?
BJ: I thought about for a few minutes. Alright, but you have to let me help out mom-dad, deal ?
Certainly they both replied .
BJ: It had been great staying with them and I promised we would do it again. It was about 10 pm now and I was headed back to my room at Keely's . I would know soon enough just what I was walking into. I unlocked the door and walked in. I put my things in my room, then went into the kitchen. Keely was sitting on one of the stools and it looked like she had been reading something . Hello, I said to her and helped myself to some juice. Did you find the job of your dreams yet, I asked and sat down beside her.
Keely: The job of my dreams? Well, nearly. It's a marketing firm, I'd basically be a go-fer. I think they called it an office assistant. I think I'll take it though, a girls gotta start somewhere.
BJ: When do you start, do you know yet? I was just wondering if you would still have time for the dance classes. The reason for my taking them has changed now. I no longer have a deadline for completion, so it won't matter if we only manage to have one class a week. Assuming your still interested that is. I've just recently been reminded of why I have never taken anything for granted. Keely about our affair, I'm not sure I can handle it right now-
Keely: No, I don't know yet. I'll be calling them on Monday to find out. I understand BJ,
BJ: What do they market? Do you mean it's an advertising agency?
Keely: Yea, I guess so. He said they have 5 large projects that they're currently working on, he wouldn't say who the clients were or anything though.
BJ: So you have to call and let him know if you have accepted the job, is that it? Any others that intrest you ?
Keely: Yea, that about covers it, the others don't hold much of a future; This company is offering a lot of things that just make sense for what I want and what I need.
BJ: And that is -what?
Keely: They'll send me to school, I get a month of vacation yearly, the opportunity to relocate in the future, I won't need to stay late, basically they've guaranteed that I won't need financial help for anything from my family. Plus all the medical coverage and whatnot. He told me that once I finish my classes I'm guaranteed a promotion. Provided that I do well, I need to hold a certain GPA. I think I actually stand a chance at this place. The others weren't as flexible, if this ranch camp hasn't had a profound effect on Keely's behavior, I'm guaranteed to be right back out there looking for another job with the other places.

Keely: I didn't even get a chance to say anything, and BJ had already hung up. He had just left Gram. I grabbed my purse and went to see her. Gram? She was on the couch, not crying, but more like she was in shock. Are you alright gram?
Mer: Keely, Let's go to the spa today. I stood, grabbed my purse, and dragged Keely to the spa. We spent the entire remainder of the day getting facials, and all the other spa type things.
Keely: Gram seemed to be fine. She was handling this really well considering everything that was going on. She would have kept me busy all week, but I did have to work.
Mer: No more work Keely, you need clothes; business suits, shoes, all that stuff. I took her shopping, and when I was done, she had enough clothes for a year.

Kari: So being a barbecue, and a very hot day, I decided we could still sit in the pool and watch the people show up. After all, we're old women, no matter what we are willing to admit! We sat in the water, and gabbed about who we thought might have been invited. I'm sure they've sent every man they could find! Whom do you two think will show?
Mercedes: Who could they invite that we don't already know?
Kari: I have no idea, what do you think Ariana?
Ariana: I think you should have let me bring Romeo! There must be some people here that we don't know. To tell the truth I never bothered to get to know most of them unless it was business . Why would I Chandler was everything to me. OH no, I added aloud not now. I don't want to think about him now! I just want him to go away! I splashed water on my face and looked from Mer to Kari and said in a ragged voice, I'll be alright just give me a minute.
Kari: Perhaps we should exit the pool, the guests are arriving....
Ariana: Sounds like a great idea to me, I said as I climbed out and started walking towards the house- Coming I asked?
Kari: Yea, I'm coming I'm coming!
Ariana: I wore a mid length demin skirt,camisole-under a white delicately embroidered featherweight gossamer rayon shirt and boots. A touch here and there of make-up and a shake of my head and I was ready to go. Mer have you seen my necklace? Kari, it's just a chain with a small camera charm on it. I paused in my search. The two of you are looking mighty good. If you'll just hold still,okay, got you, my camera works! Perhaps this will be fun after all.
Kari: Leather mini, I laughed. No, not today. I grabbed the denim one instead, and a sleeveless tank top. Then the charm bracelet, I'm all set after makeup!
Mercedes: I just bought all these new clothes, things are over with BJ, and I have suddenly lost all idea of what to wear.
Ariana: My necklace ? anyone? Wait , did you say over and BJ in the same sentence? Mer, are you alright? When did all this happen? Kari, there's the necklace, would you hand it to me please?
Kari: Here it is hon, exactly what I was thinking... What happened?
Mer: It was just time, really. I was having dreams of him and Keely together, and if we're not together, it doesn't matter who he's sleeping with. Not like he loved me anyhow. Come on guys, I brought my whole closet with me, help me out here?
Ariana: What about the red denim sleeveless dress. If you get cold you can add a sweater or one of your jackets. Yes - no? What do you think Kari ? You could always do pants or shorts? Am I not helping?
Kari: No, you aren't helping Ariana. Mercedes wear the purple sundress, and that's the final decision.
Ariana: Okay, that will work. I clicked off a few more pictures. Now what, I said as I wandered to a window where I could get a good look at the people arriving, and clicked some more. Kari, your going to be late to your own party! Shouldn't you be down there with Denzel and Eagle greeting your guests?
Kari: I suppose, but at the same time, I have no idea what to do!!!! Well, now that Mer is dressed, lets get a move on. We made our way back downstairs, and I greeted Eagle and Denzel with hugs. Hello boys.
Eagle: Hi mom. Your looking good! Ladies , the two of you are looking good too.
Kari: Thank you very much.
Denz: Mom, ladies, shall I take you to the party and start introducing everyone?
Mercedes: Why certainly, come on Ariana, Kari.
Ariana: I followed the four of them with my camara. I'm right behind you I called to them, keep going. We met quite a few men that day. I thought there were maybe three that Kari had any intrest in at all . Mercedes would pull out her diva self every now and then but, that is who she was MERCEDES. Bees to honey I thought to myself. Me? Well I wasn't ready for any of this. I was here for support only. I used my camara as a shield and did my best to blend into the scenery. Plan 2, if plan 1 didn't work was to talk about my husband. I'd been told that was not something you should do. Plan 3 get drunk and thow-up! The throwing up part was very important, men didn't like you to get sick around them. I enjoyed myself, the food was good and music also and I began to think I wouldn't have to worry about any plan.

Ariana: After the Memorial Service, about a week after, Romeo and I went through the closets and pulled every piece of Chandlers clothing out . I called one of those places that give the clothes to people looking for work but not able to afford the clothes to make a good impression on the would be employer. The other clothes I sent to several shelters around the area I gave the linnens, towels all of it away and I put the house up for sale. I kept only a few things- my photo equipment and all related things my personal things and Chandlers watch, cuff links, one pair and his rings. Aurora was horror stricken by my actions, that was how she put it . They had already taken what they wanted and I saw no reason to burden myself with the rest. I went shopping for another lawyer and when I found her we went and relieved the old one of all things related to me. I wanted this done in person to be sure everything was there and he had no time to change anything of hold anything back. I kept the tape Chandler had made for me. I asked that the new lawyer go through the will again to be sure that everything had been handled correctly. I wanted to know that everything was in order at my age why take chances. I moved into a hotel and put everything into storage for now. Romeo I kept with me it didn't bother me that they might think I had a lover for that is what he was-my lover.

BJ: I would still be able to get back in time for work, no problem. Things seemed to be moving in slow motion . While I was in overdrive.
Mer: We met up with Taru and Ingrid, and they took us hang-gliding, it was beautiful. After, we hiked back to their home, and ate supper.
BJ: Aside form having to wait for up drafts and gage down drafts the time in the air was well worth the wait. The view was spectecular and I enjoyed their company as we walked back to their home. When we finished eating it was getting dark and I would have to leave soon I wasn't sure if Mer would stay or leave. I would be going to work. We hadn't spent time alone to speak of since I had arrived on the dock at 4pm. That didn't matter, we did have a good time. I said my good byes and thanked them for a wonderful time, then turned to Mer and asked if she would walk out with me. Thank you for introducing me to your friends Mercedes. I had a very good time. Will you be out with the group doing your thing when I get in tomorrow morning? Sorry, shouldn't have asked. I should be done with my run and back at the loft around 7, I think. I don't remember how long it takes. I kissed her cheek and left. I made it on time, sat down and began my monologue. The next morning I changed into shorts and hung the other clothes in my locker and started my run to the loft. No one was there I made myself coffee and went to take a bath. I tossed in some bubble bath found the inflatable pillow blew it up as I gathered everything else I thought I might need and climbed in. I rested my head on the pillow and relaxed. I started to feel my eyes shut and quickly opened them, scrubbed myself up, cleaned things up tossed the coffee and put clean sheets on the bed. By this time time my body was dry and I went to bed hoping I would be able to sleep.
Mer: I got home late, and woke early, taking PJ for her run. When I got back from our run, BJ was already asleep. I took a shower, and lay down with BJ for a nap. It was going to be rough--getting over him. I slept, and decided while I slept that I had no choice, and I could do this. Surely it wouldn't be easy but I felt much better when I woke from my nap. It was still early, so PJ and I went shopping. I must have replaced my entire wardrobe! The old clothes, I packed up when we returned and gave to the needy. I made some lunch, and it was ready when BJ woke up.
BJ: It was almost noon when I woke, I hadn't moved . Mer, I called my voice deep from sleep, are you there? I pulled my clothes on slowly, my favorite jeans and my blue cashmere sweater and went barefoot into the other room calling her once more.
Mer: Hello, sleep well?
BJ: Like a rock I guess. I helped myself to some water and my voice began to waken up. I put my arms around her and kissed her good morning. You look unbelievably beautiful today and I kissed her again.
Mer: Why thank you, would you like some lunch?
BJ: Thanks, I think I'll take just a little bit longer to wake up first. Did you have a good time last night? Talk to me Mer.
Mer: Yes, I had a wonderful time with you yesterday.
BJ: I'm glad you thought of it and I did have a good time sweetheart but, I meant after I left.
Mer: Yes, it's been a long time since I've seen them, and it was nice to be able to catch up with them.
BJ: Do you realize that this was only the second time we have spent any time with your friends? Sometimes I wonder if your ashamed of me but that can't be true is it Mer?
Mer: BJ, I'm not ashamed of you. I just keep to myself. BJ, have you started an affair with Keely?
BJ: Mercedes -We don't talk about my affairs. Whether the answer is yes or no the question is off limits.
Mer: I'm sorry BJ, I already knew the answer and I shouldn't have asked. In fact, if I had thought about it at all I could nearly have predicted it happening. I must be the dumbest person I know, to let this sort of thing happen to me twice! I fell on the couch, and began to feel weak, like I hadn't gotten well at all.
BJ: Mercedes -you infuriate me! I turned towards her as she sank onto the couch. I don't know what your talking about and the fact is if you were anyone else I would be out that door.
Mer: What exactly is it that makes me different BJ?
BJ: I know that this is just your way to avoid telling me why you've just decided that your the dumbest person around. So what is it that is happening to you for the second time? We've been together for almost four years now Mercedes. What is it?
Mer: How was I going to say this? What was I going to say? Had it been that long? BJ, I wasn't getting over Clay's death; I was getting over Russ. I climb that mountain, and come back down, and dream about things. These dreams BJ, they won't go away; and all I can see is you and Keely together. I want them to stop BJ, I just want the damn dreams to go away.
BJ: Let me see if I understand what you are trying to tell me, okay? When Russ introduced us, he was trying to help you get over him? I thought at the time it was a combination of Clay and Russ you were running from. When after only a few days -a week at the most you told me you loved me , I didn't believe you . Having you leave Mer, I was right to do that. Taking you back on the Whale that weekend was wrong, my mistake, I guess. I love to make love with you. Maybe I wanted someone steady in my life, not that it has ever felt that way. As for Keely and your dreams, I'm not sure I can do anything about that. You need to talk to her. I don't love Keely and I'm not sure whether that makes your dream better or worse for you. I would dearly love to hold you in my arms and tell you that I love you, that I'll never leave you- I would love to be able to kiss you and make it all go away and it might for a little while. You would hate me for it later. I'm gonig to pack up and leave Mercedes, in the end that's the only thing that will make your dreams go away. I got up from where I sat, across from her,to get the few things I had. Not much of it meant anything to me, I tossed them into my leather pack and put on my boots. With cuff-links in my pocket and bag in hand I left. When I was on the street I called Keely. I'll be back late Saturday night Keely. Your -Mercedes needs you, she's been having dreams and I've left her. If not you someone -not Dionne', maybe your mother or kari? I ended the call, there wasn't anything else to say.

Lacey: When I didn't show up on the third day they would have their answer. If they couldn't control me -What did they want from me? I still couldn't figure it out and I had no idea what they would try next. I tried to think -was there something I had that they wanted-wouldn't they just ask me for it? None of it made sense to me. All I could do was wait and Steph would wait with me. I couldn't send her away, she wouldn't just go and I couldn't ask her to. That's when the phone rang! I jumped and dropped the glass I was holding. It splintered into a million pieces and the phone kept ringing.
Steph: I jumped when the phone rang, and I didn't' know if I should answer, or clean up the glass from the floor.
Lacey: I picked up the phone and heard -Hello, hello is anyone there? I recognized the voice, it was Row-with great relief I said hello
Rowena: Hi, how are you Lacey? Is Stephanie there I'd like to invite her to lunch.
Lacey: Yes, she is , and I'm alright. Hang on and I'll get her for you . I'm glad you called Row, Steph could use some time out of the house. I'll be right back.
Steph: Hi Row, how is everything?
Rowena: Can't complain, I called about lunch, can you make it - Peppe's at one o'clock?
Steph: I didn't want to leave Lacey alone, what if they came while I was out? I looked over at him, and he gave me his reassuring smile and nod. Yes, is that the one on third street?
Rowena: that's the one - we'll dish-see you then! Steph and I hadn't seen each other in a long time. I wanted to catch-up with her. Life just went by so fast .
Stephanie and I arrived at the same time. We did our hugging and kissing and then went in Peppe's . I felt like a teenager again-almost. It's so good to see you Steph!
Steph: It's been so long! What have you been doing with yourself?
Rowena: Trying to raise my daughter. She is a less demonstrative version of myself and too smart for her own good. She has no true focus. I wonder where she gets that from.
Steph: It would have to be you Row! I'm beginning to think that the obsession with flying spaceships is genetic or something. Ransom both told us about his plans, and left in the same night.
Rowena: That must have been difficult for you and Lacey. When did he leave and did he tell you when he would finish his training ? I understand that they do get time off before they get permanent assignments. It's just a bit of information I picked up from Ari. We were talking about his teaching in his youth. We don't talk about me. My youth is a mine field; that every now and then we tip toe through. The only safe time would be Montana. Speaking of which, have you heard from anyone? I haven't not Hailey, Vicki -anyone.
Steph: No actually I haven't. He left about 3 days ago, didn't tell us much at all. It's probably better that he didn't though. Tip-toeing around stories of Brian..
Rowena: Stephanie, not stories of Brian, of me. Most of my life is filled with
Brian and the things we did together, built together. He couldn't be closer to me if he were my brother. Ari just won't let himself understand.
By the way, I heard that Anita and Latham will be performing in town to raise money for the hospital. Will you and Lacey go? I'm going to try to get in touch with her so we can all get together sometime. You would come wouldn't you Steph? Stephanie, is there something else that's bothering you ? You seem a little tense.
Steph: I'm just a little frazzled still by Ransoms decision, and some unidentified person called looking to put Lacey in their debt. That's what I meant, I guess it didn't come out that way though. We definitely had planned on going, I just haven't gotten around to picking up the phone and calling people to see who else is coming.
Rowena: Don't worry about calling Steph, you have enough on you mind. What didn't come out the way you meant it, the Brien thing ? It's okay. The thing happening with Lacey would scare me too Steph . There are many things going on with Ari that I don't know about. Probably just as well, I imagine he doesn't want me losing my head or his.

Ell: I was simply skittish Rudy. I was fine until Kari started talking about showers and wedding planning, our wedding . I can't explain why it is that I can plan a whole tour date bookings, weddings, funerals and handle the most outrageous temper-tantrums, almost everything, as long as it isn't that close or personal to me. I had been standing and gesturing with my hands, now I sat down next to Rudy turning my body to face him and absentmindedly playing with his fingers as I gazed into his face waiting for him to open my eyes to the truth of things.
Rudy: Ell, it's as simple as this; you've spent too much time worrying about other people. It's just easier to deal with other people than yourself, because you haven't done anything for yourself, you do know that Kari will throw you a party anyway right? She's very good at knowing what to do for other people, and how to surprise them also. Ell, I think maybe you should think about how much you are willing to do for people. We don't get paid to plan weddings for our clients, or funerals, or any of that sort of thing, unless they are getting paid, neither are we. Thus you found yourself completely up your clients rear ends, like you absolutely needed to kiss ass or you'd go out of business or something equally awful. I love you Ell, and we're going on vacation next week, we leave Wednesday morning. NO WORK involved--period.
Ell: I felt myself stiffen , my head where? Because I care? And then when Rudy told me he loved me and I started to relax then said vacation- no work- Rudy what would I do with no work! I asked him unbelievingly.
Rudy: There's plenty for us to do hon, trust me.
Ell: I do Rudy, trust you that is. We couldn't do this in stages could we? Or are you going to tell me that I don't do stages well? Where are we going?
Rudy: Where? We're going somewhere that you can't sneak work in. How does one do vacation in stages?
Ell: You know start with a walk in the park or something like that. Rudy, honey, where could we go that we couldn't work? Forget all that. I love you and I will do my best to relax and stay, I said the next words really fast -away from work!
Rudy: Ell, we've walked in the park. There will be no work, no paper for you to write on, no phones for you to use, and no transports either. No computers, none of it. I'm pulling out all the artillery, you'll be too busy for work, understand me? I kissed her lightly, and held her close.
Ell: I think .. That I am beginning to, could we try that again?
Rudy: Most certainly darling.
Ell: I was dreaming, I knew I must be. Rudy was holding me close and calling me darling. This was fairy tale material but, I would go on living it for as long as I could.

Keely: Alright, so she's not trying to take over my life, and she has my best interests in mind, but some warning would have been nice! Especially since she's putting money into my bank account, and doesn't plan to stop until I get 'settled' into a new higher paying job.
BJ: Do you plan to go back to school or are you going to refuse her help and put the money into a separate account for Caroline and her education? If you really don't want her help you will have to tell her face to face!
Keely: I suppose that I'll be going to some interviews, and see what happens. I had resigned myself to the fact that grams wasn't going to back down, and she was right. Speaking of Mercedes; what are your plans?
BJ: Plans? What do you mean?
Keely: Well, you did say you had moved in with her until the remodeling of your house was finished.
BJ: Yes, I did . The condo is supposed to be done in August but, I haven't done any checking up on it. I think I'll do that now and see how things are coming along. I'll see you Sunday as usual ? I'll be with Mercedes if you need me. I kissed her lightly on the lips and left. I took the transport back home. I went by the condo to see how far along they were. They took me through and by the time we finished August had turned into September, maybe October for the finish date. I left not reassured by my visit and decided to check out the sailboat. It was a beautiful day for sailing and Mer was there. She looked to be as healthy as she had been when we made our first climb and had lost none of her radiance. I waved to her and PJ, evidently deciding she liked me once again was paddling towards me. I help her ashore. I have a gift for you Mer. I gave PJ a bone, fresh from Calabrese's I told her.
Mer: BJ decided to show his face. Sucking up to PJ even. Oh hell what did it matter, it's not like I really expected anything from him. I rode the dingy back to meet him and PJ on dry land. I greeted him with a hug, how have you been?
BJ: Fine, I haven't been gone that long have I ? Your cap my dear, every captain should have one. I set it on her head and put my arms around her then leaned back slightly to see how it looked. Not bad, I told her and kissed her hello. Have you been out here long I asked loosening my hold a bit or is it that you were expecting someone else? I can go Mer, I told her a bit concerned that I might be interrupting her plans.
Mer: No, I wasn't expecting anyone actually. Maybe Keely-- I expect that she's not exactly happy with me right now.
BJ: I'm sure you only have her best interests in mind.
Mer: What are your plans for today?
BJ: My only plans for today are to spend it with you. I stopped by the Condo before I came to see what they had done. Mer, they're telling me maybe September or October now. I'm not sure it will even be done then. That is as much depression as I want to deal with today. You look as if you have regained all your strength, have you?
Mercedes: Even more so than I had expected.
BJ: Really? That's wonderful, isn't it?
Mer: I suppose, in some ways more than others. I think I'd rather not have so much time to think though.
BJ: What would you like to do with the rest of the day?
Mercedes: I think I'd like to do some hang-gliding, what do you think?
BJ: We had been walking and I stopped, my arm around her waist. I would love it , if your sure? What, I asked as we started to walk again, made you think of that? Have you any idea where?
Mercedes: Like I said, I've got too much thinking time! Asia, I know some people there who can get things ready for us quickly.
BJ: All right! What are we waiting for. Maybe I should buy some long pants though! Lets go, wait, what about PJ ? I could feel the adrenaline already and if I died ? Besides my family, who would care, that was just a momentary thought floating through my mind. This would be exciting, the sort of thing I loved to do.
Mer: PJ we'll drop off on the way to the store, so let's get going then.
BJ: If we're going home I can just grab some pants there. By the way Mercedes, what does one wear hang gliding?
Mer: I suppose as long as it's warm and not bulky, you can wear it... jeans and a sweatshirt? I really don't know!
BJ: Annoying isn't it, when you don't know, I laughed. I found my sweatshirt and a pair of jeans and I was ready.
Mer: I made the call to my friends in Asia, and they told me what we'd need to know, coordinates and what not. They'd be ready for us when we got there.

Bj: We pulled ourselves together and said good bye to Ceili and the others and went back to Keely's. Shower I asked? Afterward we slept. The next day was her day to relax.
Keely: In the morning, I called the bank to see what my balance was. There was too much money there! Gram had called and left me a message--she was going to be supporting me and Caroline, I needed to find myself something less menial than waiting tables she said. Once I had gotten settled into a position that would support us comfortably, she would stop putting money in my account.
Mercedes: The idea was that Keely shouldn't be living this way. All the other grandchildren were established, and taking care of themselves, and I had more than enough money; Keely may as well have some of it.
Keely: Later in the afternoon, I got the package she sent, all sorts of information about schools, jobs, etc. I couldn't look at this stuff now, I tossed it on the counter and went about practicing my 'chef' skills.
BJ: I'd let her just have her morning to herself, she had things to do and I went to the radio station and visited,off air. Then I took the familiar run back to the house. It was hot my clothes were hanging on my body. When I opened the door the steamy aroma of food cooking came rushing out. My dry mouth started to water-water, yes I needed water. She was cooking alright. I took a glass down and helped myself to a cool drink.
Keely: I was watching the stew simmer, and sifting through the papers gram Mercedes had sent, and tossing them one by one into the garbage when BJ got home. Then I found the appointment book, in which my grandmother had set up a loose schedule of interviews for new jobs. Well, not loose but spaced out. I tried calling her back, and yelling at her, but she wasn't home and wasn't answering her cellular either.
BJ: I watched as she tossed broshures into the trash, then picked up the phone . She didn't look like a happy camper as she punched in a new set of numbers. I was begining to shiver now, so I went into take my shower and dress. I put on a pair of shorts and a T-shirt. When I came out Keely was standing over the stew and tapping her foot. I sat at the counter and asked what was wrong?
Keely: Gram is trying to take over my life, she's set up about a thousand job interviews and she won't answer her phone.
BJ: Is there anyway she could tell that it was you ? Never mind, ofcourse there is, I told her, that's why she won't answer. She wants you to think about it a little longer.

Ell: I met with Kari and asked if she would be more comfortable with casual or if she wanted to go the whole nine yards? People tend to behave better when they are all dressed up but they aren't as relaxed. Which would you like I asked. I've been told that cost doesn't enter into it so it is totally up to you.
Kari: I think casual will work alright, the nicer side of casual that is.
Ell: What about a theme, I don't want you to be stuck with tons of men milling around you checking you out like they would a horse or vise versa at least not so obviously so. It would freak me out. Rodeo, or luau. I think that beach party would be too informal for you. Barbecue?
Kari: BBQ is fine, but you really should just hire him a personal assistant, and let them do this stuff. Nevermind, that gives me an idea for his birthday/Christmas. Whatever you decide is fine, I'll make sure that everything is stocked up.
Ell:Thanks Kari but that won't be necessary, I can handle the stocking-up and ordering. If you could show me around so I can get an idea of where to set things up that would be great. As for Eagle, its a labor of love and what would I do with all that spare time?
Kari: I'm sure Rudy could think of something, and planning the wedding might be a good idea. Follow me, I'll show you where everything is.
Ell: I blushed, that sounds like something my mother might have said I replied as I followed her outside. Kari and I sat on the porch when we were done and I sketched out for her what I thought we would do and where things would go. What do you think ? Any changes? Suggestions?
Kari: No, it's all fine. This is all just a lot of fuss for fuss sake, if you ask me. A party that is too well planned will be no fun at all. I have enough staff to cover things, they're used to large BBQ's. I hooked up the "shopping list" and got an inventory of all the dishes, silverware and food that I had, and then I gave it to Ell. There's no reason to make things harder than they need to be.
Ell: If you would rather have your staff do it, that's fine, really but I will see to it that they get paid what it would cost to have someone else do it, or rather I will give you the money and you can see to it. You would know best who should get what. Kari, there isn't much fuss in the plans, not really. Music is the next item, any ideas. I don't know how many musical people are coming but as a rule they don't like to perform where they are being entertained unless the situation is just right, they can't be counted on.
Kari: I have a music collection that rivals the best of music collections, as I've recently discovered. Look at this- I took Ell inside to the den and showed her the disc collection, and then the automatic DJ system, which was really just a computer with a huge memory, and the ability to hold up to 100 discs for playback. I've got music covered.
Ell: This is a beautiful system, he must have caught a lot of friends and family on these to. I felt a catch in my throat and cleared it. These will be more than suficiant I told her . We talked of tables,chairs serving etc. down to the silverware and dishes which we would use. No paper or plastic! I stood up, do you need me for anything, I asked her?
Kari: Only the bridal shower, which will be planned after this shinannigan is over with. Your bridal shower, not mine.
Ell: My what? No I don't need a bridal shower, I told her . There isn't anyone to invite and this isn't my first marriage, really thanks but you shouldn't bother. I picked up my things and made a hasty retreat to my car saying if you need any help just call other wise I think you have it covered. I shut the door and left.

Lacey: I had never expected to hear from these people again. He was offering me my son's safety in exchange for what? I was fifty one now, what could I do for them?
He will be called Poppy from now on -in the interest of identification.
Poppy: Will you meet with us? I realize you are surprised so I will meet with you at the usual place in 3 days if the answer is yes-and Lacey-come prepared to leave.
Lacey: I set the phone back down quickly glancing over to see if Steph was awake. It didn't seem so. I was wide awake now and there was no way I would be sleeping anytime soon. Ransom would take a different route to get where he wanted to be if I closed this one. I had taught him to well. That was what you had to do to survive. I wouldn't go to that meeting. I would just wait and see what developed. Our son was safer just where he was right now.
I kissed Steph's forehead and left our bed, dressed and went to the kitchen. I helped myself to a cup of hot lemon water-I was trying to give up my morning caffeine. I opened the door to the patio and set the cup down and went to get the morning paper. When I came back with the paper I stood looking at the cup . I picked it up and tossed the contentedly on the lawn. I normally wouldn't have thought a thing about it . I went in and washed the cup out and made myself another cup and once again went to enjoy the morning. I hadn't done anything with that box Mom had talked to me about. I wondered if she --no she would have done something else with it. I had tried to tell her that I had done that put the other information there. She had been so upset though that I thought it would be best not to tell her. How could I tell her now or even ask for it? Steph, how could they expect me to just leave her ? What could I tell her to explain it? I hoped that they would just let it go if I didn't come but knew they wouldn't.
Stephanie: I woke, and figured that Lacey must have woken early, either on his own, or maybe not on his own. I had thought I heard the phone ring, but I was too sleepy to be sure. I went downstairs, to see Lacey tossing his water on the lawn, it had been a phone call. Lacey hon, did someone call this morning?
Lacey: I wondered how long she had been watching me . Yes, someone, didn't give a name though. It was a nuisance call, nothing important. They had just forced me to lie to my wife! I was amazed at how easily it came back to me. The honesty in my voice was what really scared me. Even I would believe me.
Steph: He sounded as honest as always, but I still wasn't sure. I'd let it go though.
Lacey: I was thinking of my father -Ransom that is -- I can remember him playing with me. He would sometimes sneak in when he should have been somewhere else. I remember their fights and I remember being scared, Everyone was scared he wanted us to go home to grandma and grandpa McGuire and Mom wouldn't . He was no saint and he didn't have to go that day. I...I'm sorry Steph, I don't know where that came from. I hope I've been a better husband than either of my fathers were. If anything should ever happen to me... sometimes ones past comes to bite him in the butt.. know that I love you and Ransom. I don't know why I'm being so morbid this morning. Maybe it's just Ransom's decision that has me upset.
Steph: Lacey, I love you and you're a wonderful husband. What do they want from you, and will Ransom be safe?
Lacey: They want me to owe them something. They made me an offer and I won't except it . Ransom is safest right where he is. I shouldn't be telling you anything Stephanie. It isn't safe for you to know anything but, if I should disappear they would be the reason. Alright lets cut through it-They offered to help us get Ransom back, stop him from going. They want me to to meet them and just leave, be ready to. Steph, Ransom would figure a way around it, I know he would, I would! We wouldn't gain anything. So I'm not going to the meet. I don't want to just walk out of the life we have. I don't want to leave you, I love you.
Steph: I love you Lacey, so all we can do is wait and see what happens then. Should we tell the family Ransom has left?
Lacey: Yes, we might as well . That's what he wanted us to do. The question is how to go about it. We certainly aren't going to call everyone up and tell them that way. You could let your parents know and ask them to pass the word if asked? It's not something we are going to throw a party about.
Steph: Alright. I'll call them now, get it over with. I called my parents and asked them to pass it on if asked. There, that's done with. I hate waiting, but that was the only option. Three days later, I wondered what would happen, how would these people deal with Lacey standing them up?

BJ: I'm up for most anything, you? That leaves suit I'm am going to get one-you?
Keely: Yes, I'll be grabbing one also. We went and changed, and I met him out on the raft.
BJ: Keely was already on the raft when I got there . I pulled myself up onto the raft and sat next to her. Did you want to get away from the crowd?
Keely: There was a crowd? I laughed, Not entirely. Mostly I wanted to push you off. He pulled me into the water with him when I did. We were joined shortly by some of the others, maybe Ceili was the only one I did know!
BJ: You didn't really think I would go in alone, did you Keely. I dunked her. So, I laughed who do you know, that's here I asked her. A few of the others had joined us now and were tradeing dives.
Keely: Let's see! I pulled myself back up, and looked around, then took my dive back in. I see Adam, and I've met Ceili before- I think that's it.
BJ: Well, Ceili is our hostess but I don't know a Adam, show me. We climbed back on and tried to find Adam. Adam who by the way?
Keely: Adam Kensley, he's doing a tribal dance around the fire, I pointed him out.
BJ: Oh, the one swinging his hat around ? I don't know him. Bill, Helen , this is Keely. They said their hi's . Helen wanted to race back to shore the first to get there wins fifty bucks. Want to try she asked? Not me I told her, your a ringer. BJ , your no fun . Bill jumped into the water and was half way there when he said he would and Helen took off.
I looked at Keely I should tell you that she hopes to be on the olympic team this coming year. I was getting dark though and we decided to head for shore. Bill through us a blanket and a couple of towels. Come over by the fire and get warm before you do anything else -there is more food too if your hungry. He took hold of Keely's arm when she tripped and I fell. I'm fine I told them I'm going to change, you go ahead. I'll be there in a few minutes.
Bill: There is someone here who says he knows you Keely- Adam, here she is. Just say hi if you don't want to see him and someone will lead him in another direction-distraction, you see? I don't know him very well myself . I couldn't tell by her reaction whether she was a friend of his or not. He wasn't much like BJ . I wondered aloud where BJ had met her?
BJ: As I walked towards the fire I saw that Bill was walking Keely towards the changing rooms. He left her about half way there when someone called him and he ran up to the house. I wondered what had happened. I knew that one of his horses was due to fold soon and he had been worried for some reason. I didn't move though, just sat on the rocks watching the world turn and thinking of ...
Keely: No sooner had Bill been wondering about how BJ and I met than he was running to the house, leaving me with Adam. So Adam, scared to come and say hello on your own? Understandable, but if you're thinking I'll go out with you try again. We chatted for a few seconds, and I went to change. Walking back to the fire, I found BJ sitting on the rocks. I climbed up and sat next to him, and offered him half of the blanket.
BJ: Keely stopped to talk with some guy after Bill left her. I remembered he was the guy-Adam, that was his name. It looked from here like he might have been one of her dates gone wrong. I turned back to the waves and watched the tide climb farther up the beach. Keely sat next to me, pulling the blanket around us. I welcomed the warmth, the distraction from my thoughts. Thanks, I needed that I'm feeling reflective just now. You're sure to have more fun at the party than sitting here with me.
Keely: Fun is relative. If you'd like me to leave you alone I will. Are you working tonight?
BJ: Yes, I should go, they won't have ...Hell with it. I'm not going in. I pulled out my phone and let them know I wouldn't be in tonight. You can use the taped show and I told them where to find it. I will be in tomorrow night. That takes care of that I said. I think I'd like to spend a little more time alone, if you wouldn't mind. Could you give me 'bout half an hour?
Keely: I most certainly can do that. I left him with the blanket, and returned to the party. It was definately an interesting bunch of people, and I mingled among them, I finally took a seat on a log with a plate of food. The fire was warm and inviting, and I once again wondered why I had come, I must be out of my mind. In a matter of days I had gone from just normal to agreeing to have a short affair with BJ who was also carrying on a long term affair with my grandmother. I gave him about 45 minutes before I went back over to check on him.
BJ: I watched her walk down the beach towards the warm and friendly gathering of my friends. Our friends now, at least I hoped she had made some friends. I thought about what I had done. I thought about Mer and I wasn't sure I could go back to her or that she would want me to. Somehow I felt she knew what I had done. I didn't know what I would do truthfully. While these thoughts were going through my head I saw Keely walking towards me again. I smiled, waved and went to meet her.
Keely: I had made some friends, and even some plans with a couple of people. I didn't know if BJ planned to go back to Texas or not, or even if grams would still want him there. Guilt, this was guilt; no he hadn't promised anything and neither had I. Thing was- she loved him, and I didn't. I found BJ, with a smile on his face, and I felt a smile creep up on me.
BJ: Howdy-having a good time, I asked her, as we headed back in the direction she had just come from. I put my arm around her shoulders and when she looked up at me I kissed her. It was meant only to be a short friendly one but it turned out to be much more.
Keely: Somehow I went from guilt to something completely different in a matter of seconds.
BJ: This was crazy, we couldn't be doing this here but we were. The music and hum of voices were in the distance and now they seemed farther away than before.

Dionne: I told you something awful was going to happen. But I never imagined that it would be this!
Russ: De, nothing that awful has happened yet. He is just going to learn to fly right now. If that is the worst that happens there isn't much to worry about.
Dionne: It's too big of an 'if' for my comfort Russ. And it's not the training that scares me. I'm going for a swim, join me?
Russ: Yes, I would love to join you and I know that isn't what you are worried about. Dionne', it won't do you any good to worry. If I thought you worried that much about me every time I went out the door, I would divorce you so you wouldn't have to.
Dionne: Oh thank you Russ, I replied sarcastically and jumped into the pool.
Russ: I dove in after her jump and came up beside her. I took her face in my hands and kissed her mouth.
Dionne: Why?

Mercedes: I had another realization experience, the dreams again. I should have followed my first instinct, and ended things on the mountain like I had planned. I called up my nephew to find out exactly when that party for Kari was going to be. He didn't know, and told me he'd check with Eagle, and Kari would let me know. I called Kari, maybe she knew already. Kari told me she'd call me back as soon as she got in touch with Eagle.
Kari: Eagle, I've been waiting nearly all summer, when is this party?
Eagle : I'm so sorry didn't Denz get in touch with you ? It's next weekend, with or without some people. Ell should be over sometime today to check things out and get things going.
Kari: Ok, good thing I called then. I called Mer back and told her, and then Ariana.
Ariana: Kari do you have any more to do in the house? Have we gotten it all done and lastly THIS saturday did you say?
Kari: Yes, THIS saturday. I've got everything to a reasonable amount now, that's all under control.
Ariana: I suppose I'll have to take care of Chandler's things soon. Kari you wouldn't mind awfully if I didn't come would you ? I'm not sure I could face a flesh and blood man yet.
Kari: What kind of party would it be if you weren't there? Mercedes is even coming!
Ariana: I tried to put some backbone into my voice. Alright Kari , I'll give it a try. Mer won't be bringing BJ will she? That wouldn't be fair. If she did I would have to go home for Romeo!
Kari: No she isn't bringing him, she's looking to replace him. She did that whole mountain thing again, and she's having dreams about BJ and Keely.
Ariana: Keely and BJ ? Is she - I guess it doesn't matter. Maybe it is easier to handle if you don't know who he's been with. Is she sure?
Kari: She said she was taking him up there to end things, and couldn't go through with it, and now she's dreaming about him and Keely, I suppose it doesn't matter if it's Keely or someone else, she finally realizing that he won't ever commit!
Ariana: So she is finally going to believe him? I don't know Kari maybe it's something else. No I don't know what. Well whatever, we always told her .. I just left it . Kari, I was married to Chandler for 60 years-I took a deep breath and let it out. We won't be the only women there will we?
Kari: I haven't the foggiest idea Ariana. The boys haven't told me a thing, I had to call Eagle just to find out when I was having the darn thing!
Ariana: I supose Ell will be putting things together for them, right. Eagle has a tour coming up soon, or so I heard.
Kari: From the sound of it yes. I wonder when She and Rudy are actually going to get married? Oh well, yea, Ell will be getting things in motion. Don't kow for sure how I should be dressed, so I'm thinking that we could just wait in the pool for people to start showing up. That way, well, I'll know what kind of party I'm supposed to be dressed for!
Ariana: Why is it that we know so much about what is happening with others and not a single thing about ourselves? The whole thing was funny and i just laughed. I needed it.
Kari: I don't know, her laugh was contagious, and we spent a few minutes just laughing on the phone.
Ariana: Whew! Well then, I giggled , I'll bring my suit and an assortment of other things . I love you girl and I will see you Sat. Was there anything else? Did I call you or did you call me I laughed I forgot.
Kari: I think I called you, good, get here early so we don't get surprised!
Ariana: You got it and I'll see you then-bye bye.

BJ: I washed the dishes and Keely dried. What plans have you made for today or are you amenable to going horseback riding?
Keely: I haven't made any plans, horseback riding sounds like fun.
BJ: Great! Do you have boots I asked? If not try to wear something that will cover your ankles. I was headed to my room then turned and added -You probably didn't need me to tell you that did you? I shut the door and changed.
Keely: I found my boots, and a pair of jeans, and we went horseback riding. As with everything else, I was out of practice. It came back quickly though, and I didn't embarass myself.
BJ: We had a good time. I noticed that she hadn't been riding in awhile and wondered why, just for a moment . Most of her dates were for lunch or dinner. That way she could more easily dump a jerk. I watched her move as she rode ahead of me and wondered just what the hell I was doing. I must be out of my mind. Ten to one she was thinking the same thing.
Keely: I already knew he was insane, what was I doing- going insane with him? I wanted to suggest a psychotherapist for him, but decided against it.
BJ: We were invited to dinner at a friend's place and since it was a spur of the moment thing we all went as we were . Most had been riding , others jogging we were all casually dressed. They were having lobster and corn on the cob along with a bon fire. I turned to Keely, willing, I asked?
Keely: It had been a while since I had taken a night off, so I agreed to go along.
BJ: We all tel-aported to their place it was on the ocean. Everything was set up for a party. There were twelve of us altogether. We all ate at a low table on the sand. I had never been here before. I told Keely that it was all new to me. Except the people.
Keely: I won't ask you for help finding the bathroom later on then. I knew one or two of the people there, but not very well. The food was good, and the air and water were warm.
Ceili: There are suits for bathing in the bath house if anyone would like to indulge. Or you can go as you are. towels and anything else you need you will also fine there . Calm down and listen for a minute please. If you can't manage to go home it's alright we have plenty of extra cabins. Alright now you go back to enjoying yourselves!
BJ : We were all done eating and music was now playing . There was a raft floating out a ways and it seemed more people had joined the party , The fire was being lit now. It was huge and would last a good long time. I helped Keely up. What would you like to do, I asked.
Keely: Are you up for a swim?

BJ: I had gone out and met with friends, they wanted to race their cars up and down the beach to see who would come the closest to the water without getting stuck it sounded stupid at first and then-I agreed to do it. I rode with them. In the end we stuck the car and then it just came out of the sand and water and we were free! I was on a super high from the whole experience when I came in the door. Keely was standing in the kitchen with a cookbook on the counter. I dropped my shoes-probably ruined and my jacket and shirt . Hi how was the date? I asked as I sat down on the stool.
Keely: It was less than boring, you look like you've had a fun day though!
BJ: YES I did! It feels good to just let go and do something stupid like racing down the beach to see how close to the water you can get before you get stuck! Keely, do you ever do something stupid any more?
Keely: Let's see, I thought for a moment. Not very often, I did something stupid once, and now I have Caroline. You might say I've been scared smart. BJ had come over to see what I was cooking up, I could smell the sand and water on him and I turned to face him. Homemade spaghetti sauce, I lifted up the spoon and offered him a taste of it.
BJ: I took hold of the spoon and tasted it. I smiled you've been practicing I pronounced. The flavors of the herbs and spices were just starting to mingle. Delicious!
Keely: Thank you, I have been practicing. I turned the burner down, and put the lid back on the pot. I guess I could use some practice being stupid too. I moved about the kitchen gathering things to put in another pot. Then I brushed against BJ, and did the first stupid thing I'd done in years; I kissed him.
BJ: It took me by surprise when she kissed me and I pulled away to look into her eyes for a moment and then I did the second stupid thing of the night I kissed her back I could feel myself respond to her, waiting for her to pull away. Ready for it even.
Keely: It took me a moment or two to realize just how stupid this was. In that short amount of time I had considered that BJ and I both held basically the same position on commitment, it wasn't gonna happen. I had done this before, and nothing had changed in the grand scheme of things, I was capable of a one night stand. I fumbled turning off the burners, and luck was with me, I didn't get burned; lucky because I wasn't looking, and was one handed while I did it. I could feel him responding to me, and I felt the sand on my arms from his shirt. If we were to end up having sex at all, it could happen anywhere, Caroline wasn't here to witness anything.
BJ: I whispered into her hair that if she wanted we could stop now. She was fumbling with the stove and I knew. I wasn't going to worry or think of anything but pleasing Keely tonight.
Keely: It was an amazing night, and I did manage to act normal the next day, even though dance class was a little bit tense at times.
BJ : She hadn't left me alone in bed that morning but I wasn't sure just what she wanted, and because we were up so late the next morning , we didn't have much time to talk. While we danced at class I handled her the way I would a lover. Because of that she seemed a little tense I guess. I hoped we would be able to talk about this later. For now the dance.
Keely: We danced, and after we would talk. I wasn't sure where BJ wanted to take this either, but I guess I had just assumed that the answer would be nowhere, I mean, he's sleeping with my grandmother! Of course this was all running through my head during class. We sat down to eat lunch, like we normally would and I decided to let him start the conversation, I didn't know what to say.
BJ: This was not a situation I was used to . I was to damn used to pleasing women that was my problem . I most always let them end it. We were eating lunch now and it was as good a time as any to be open with her. I took her hand and led her to the sofa and asked her to sit then I released her hand. Keely, I don't have one night stands as a rule. The ones I have had either I have left before morning or they have. So I'm not sure exactly how to act with you. I care very deeply for Mer and wouldn't do anything to intentionally hurt her -that's a lie . I hurt her each time I leave her. She almost never knows where I've gone and I never tell her who I am with or why and seldom when I will be back. She loves me and I can't give her that. I will not just leave her I have tried -I have tried to get her to leave me and she either can't or won't. I did think that she would a couple of times but she hasn't. I never expect her to be waiting around for me and I am continuely surprised that she is. I have big dreams for her, a man who will love her much better than I. That is how things are between us. I told Mer and I will tell you. I am a man who helps women recover from whatever. I like to make them whole again-then they leave. I am not a man women fall in love with , I am the man in-between. This is your house and I'm renting a room, you can't just walk away but, I will if you are uncomfortable with my being here.
Keely: There isn't much that can make me uncomfortable including this. I don't need healing, and I don't plan to stop searching for someone. I don't know if last night was a one time thing, and regardless of whether or not it was; and now I'm beginning to talk out my ass. I have a firm grip on what is good for me and Caroline, I stay away from relationships because they never come out right. I don't want any more from this than a friendship; which already exists, and possible infrequent sexual encounters; which I can live without. Otherwise, things start to get complicated.
BJ: Forget that her thinking was a bit flawed. I wasn't going to get into that kind of conversation. I would like you to consider a short affair between now and the time Caroline comes home?
Keely: I considered, it didn't make any sense to me. I should have an affair with the same man my grandmother is in love with, after I just told him I didn't want to have an affair, and how come he had to look so damn good all the time? And all this because I did something stupid. He wanted to have an affair, until Caroline came home, alright; after all, I can handle this. Alright BJ, but it ends when she comes home.
BJ: Yes, it will end when she comes home. I've just become very hungry! Let's finish our lunch, shall we. I helped her up and led her back to the table. Eat up!
Keely: This was going to be a very strange month and a half. We finished lunch and cleaned up.

Ransom: The call came and I answered the same way as before. Yes sir, thank you sir. I hung up. I had been accepted and soon I would be flying !
I got into my car and went and signed the papers they took care of everything right then. I wanted to tell someone but, I didn't want to surprise mom and dad by telling them infront of the whole clan-almost . So I went to Gram's , and told them.
Dionne: Russ was right, Ransom must have just been waiting for a call and he was here now. When he told me he was going to be flying, just like his grand-father; I collapsed, I couldn't breathe, it was almost like living the whole thing all over again. I thought maybe I was having a heart attack.
Russ: I got the smelling salts and broke the caplet under her nose and took her pulse. I stuck a tablet under her tongue. Ransom was clearly scared to death he looked like he might be my next patient. Ransom, get some water please and I nodded toward the bar. He went and I hoped Dionne' would be alright -I prayed.
Dionne: When I woke, I was on the sofa. Russ and Ransom were there, looking quite concerned. I remembered what had happened. Ransom, was going to get himself killed willingly, just like his grandfather. Please don't do this Ransom, please- fly planes or something safe?
Ransom : When I saw that she was alright I felt the color coming back to my face. Gram, please listen, I have lived my 18 yrs. doing the right thing the safe thing . What other people wanted me to do. I didn't whine at my grams, just stated it as fact. Now, I am going to do this. Things are so much safer than before . Some , thanks to Aiden. I need to do this for me. I looked at both of them . Russ nodded , I was pretty sure that he would now I waited for grams to say something.
Dionne: I could be thankful that he hadn't rushed into it, but I wasn't reassured. Of course it was easier for Russell to be understanding, but I had seen how these things ended up. Lacey had seen even more, and the proof of all of it was in a safety deposit box, which I had ended up doing since Lacey had wanted nothing more to do with any of it. I pulled the key to that box out of my purse, and lifted my head again. I managed to speak slowly and clearly to Ransom. I think you should have this then, If ever you need it, your life is in danger- and only then, this key will unlock a safety deposit box with all the answers you may need. You mustn't touch it until that time, and I hope you never need to. I thought of Lacey, What did your Father say when you told him?
Ransom: I haven't told them yet . I will when they get home though. I have already signed the papers and sworn my aligence there is no backing out. He won't be able to do anything. I am of age, if not 21, but if by some strange twist they manage to stop it, I will do it later.
Dionne: Ransom, I'm not going to stand in your way. But tell me, how is your personal life, are you seeing someone?

BJ: I got up pulled on some pants and went out to start the machine. I hit the button and went back to shower. I would have to dress before I went back out to the kitchen. If I didn't I wouldn't have time to dress. I put a pair of dress pants on and shoes . Then brought out my shirt with me, I'd put that on after breakfast. I went straight for the latte.
Keely: Well, cereal wasn't going to work this morning, I had to use one of those contraptions, I put the eggs and bacon in, and ran back up to get dressed. I pulled on the pantyhose, and the dress, and ran back downstairs with shoes in hand, just in time to get breakfast out of that stinking machine.
BJ: I was pouring my first cup and one for Keely when she came racing into the kitchen, dropped her shoes and pulled breakfast out of whatever that was. Where would you like me to put the plates ? Counter or table? You better relax or you won't make it today.
Keely: Counter, and I'm working on the relaxing thing. Could you zip this for me?
BJ: Sure, I set the dishes down on the counter. She had already turned her back to me and was holding her hair. I took hold of the tab and the bottom of the zipper and slid it up to her back. I carefully moved the loose ends of her hair and finished zipping. She smelled fresh and clean. I dropped the hair and stepped away from her. There you are I said.
Keely: Thank you. We ate breakfast, and went to dance class. It was time to learn a new dance, BJ caught on to this one much better than I did.
BJ: With all the closeness of these dances and the passion they needed you to show or enphsize I should say, it was a wonder everyone wasn't headed for bed afterward. On the other hand maybe they were. I hoped teens didn't get into this. Keely's dress was exactly right for what we were doing now. I wondered again why she hadn't found anyone yet. I twirled her into my arms and we were face to face and hardly a breath away.
Keely: My first instinct was to kiss him, but it's a good thing that I never follow that one. How did gram get so lucky? BJ always smelled good, always looked good, why wasn't he taking these classes with gram? Of course, if he were to kiss me, that wouldn't be me following my first instinct, just following his lead.
BJ: She had opened her lips just a little like an invitation. It was too late we had taken to long and hadn't followed into the next position and Raif was right there telling us what we should have done. Then he took Keely and showed me, then returned her to me with a bow to her. That was like pouring cold water on things.
Keely: Raif had probably saved us from a thousand awkward moments. I almost wished he hadn't. After class, I remembered I had a date for lunch. I changed clothes and got ready for another boring date.
BJ: We went back together, as far as the fish market, where I stopped to shop. When I figured I'd gotten everything I needed I headed back. I thought to myself it was a good thing I had a lot of control. I might have kissed her. Then I thought of Mer. There would be know way I would be able to get through these lessons with her as a partner. Not the way we knew - I knew her. On the other hand maybe I could. I wondered just what I should do about the feeling Keely and I were ..oh hell, I told myself just forget it. Nothing was going to happen and I wasn't making any promises to anyone. I reached the door and rang the bell, my hands were full.
Keely: I opened the door expecting my date, and it was BJ. I took a bag or two from his hands and set them on the counter. Then my date showed up, and I had to bid farewell to BJ. I was right, it was an awful, boring date. I came home and started going through recipe books, and cooking.

Eagle: With Mari beside me, I put a call into the Portland school and let them know that Pandora Monroe had chosen their school. Would they please send a list of requirements for this coming year along with their letter of acceptance of her as a student. I reminded them that they had a list of the classes etc that Pandora had chosen and all other paper work. When we recieved all info we would send payment for the full year.
We had the papers the next day and Pandora and a list of things she would need to bring including uniform. The uniform could be purchased at the school. We went over everything with Pandora. She would have to be there the second week in September.
Pandora: I managed to spend as much time as humanly possible with everyone, and it seemed to have flown by. It was time to say goodbye, and I did it as quickly as possible. When I got to the school, purchased the uniform(s) and was shown to my new room. My roommate hadn't gotten there yet, so I chose a bed, and began to unpack. My brothers and sisters had snuck a couple of gifts into my things, and I set them aside until I had everything else put away.

Dionne: Russ was finally home, which must mean that Mercedes was okay now, I asked about her anyway.
Russ: We did go out and celebrate her being well honey. Is something worrying you, something else?
Dionne: I don't know, I just have a strange feeling that something is wrong, somewhere.
Russ: With your sister? She is back to herself in more ways than one. If you feel that way though, perhaps we, you should call.
Dionne: I think I'll make a few calls, I'm not sure if it's Mer, or something/someone else. I went to the phone, Mercedes was fine, Brian and Sheri were alright as were thier kids, and then I called Lacey, maybe something was going on over there?
Ransom: Ransom speaking.
Dionne: Ransom, it's your grandmother. When do you suppose you'll come and visit?
Ransom: Grandmother? Ah, well I don't know? When would you like to make an appointment?
Dionne: An appointment? Well, why don't you let me know when your schedule isn't full, or you could just drop by the dance studio for lunch next week?
Ransom: Alright um, I'll stop by the studio. See you then Dionne'. I rang off. Boy oh boy! I'd called her by her first name too. So what I was old enough!
Dionne: I'd have to call back, first of all, since when was that ok, and second of all, I had originally called to talk to his father anyways.
Ransom : Ransom speaking, I said once again into the phone. Hoping I wouldn't have to deal with Gran.
Dionne: Ransom, is your dad home?
Ransom: No They went to some Cash thing. Would you like to leave a message? I prayed that she wouldn't and that I could get off the phone.
Dionne: Forget it Ransom, wouldn't want to take up more than two seconds of your time. I hung up the phone. That was painful, I wanted to rip into him; but it wouldn't accomplish anything.
Russ: I watched as she returned the phone . She was upset. What was that all about I asked questioningly?
Dionne: Ransom, it seems that talking to me for two minutes is a hassle. Lacey and Steph aren't home.
Russ: Her hand was still on the phone and I put mine on hers. Dionne' he could be waiting for a call. It may not have anything to do with you at all. Think about it.
Dionne: He asked me if I wanted to make an appointment to see him, he called me Dionne, and you're probably right.
Russ: It sounds like his mind is somewhere else, I wonder where it is.
Ransom: Why didn't they call ! I hoped that it would be soon, mom and dad weren't going to be home until late but, the day was slipping away . I wanted to have everything set before they found out-before I told them. I wouldn't wait much later. I would call them in a few more minutes!

Ransom: Grams had thrown me with this one, my personal life ? No , I don't have any girl friends of any kind. They don't like me I told her.
Dionne: How could they not like you? I think it's all in your head, or maybe it's just that you aren't trying?
Ransom: I'm not interested and I'm not enough of a bad boy for them.
Dionne: I decided that this wasn't going anywhere with him, so I dropped it, and gave him a big hug. It was getting late, and I suggested he get home before his parents did, so that he could break the news to them.
Ransom: Russ hadn't had much to say. I guessed that he didn't think it was his place to. He gave me a hug as I was leaving,take care of your self Ransom and always watch your back was the advise he gave me. I hadn't expected the hug, just a clap on the shoulder or something. I kissed grams and left.
I got home in time to walk in the door with mom and dad. They wanted to know where I had been. Grams is what I told them. Then the usual questions -how are they did I see the girls etc etc. I waited for them to sit down and take off their shoes of something but they didn't they just said good night and headed for their room. Mom - Dad -I would like to talk to you Tomorrow Ransom dad said , were really tired. It has to be tonight I told them in a more forceful tone. They stopped and looked back at me. I waited.
Lacey: Steph and I came back into the room and sat down. Alright Ransom, what is it? I held Stephanie's hand and Ransom cleared his throat.
Ransom: I have enlisted . I'm going to be flying.
Stephanie: Enlisted? Flying? I couldn't believe my ears, I squeezed Laceys hand, and looked to see how he was taking the news.
Lacey: I didn't know what to say but , I suddenly knew how mom must have felt . No, it must have been worse for her there was a war being waged then . Have you pledged yet I asked him ? When do you leave and did you tell your grandmother?
Ransom: Yes I did tell grams and yes I have taken the oath. I am going I leave tonight. Would you tell the rest of the family for me?
Lacey: Tonight , no Ransom not tonight ?
Ransom : I'm sorry but I couldn't take any chances on your trying to change things. I picked up my bag , hugged mom and dad and left.
Stephanie: Ransom! It was too late, he was gone. I knew why I had wanted more than one child and wished that things hadn't happened the way they had. It was his responsibility to explain himself to the family, not mine. I couldn't and wouldn't do it. I poured a glass of juice and headed for bed, numb from what had just happened.
Lacey: Stephanie, she seemed not to hear me, pouring her juice and going to bed. I stood there and watched her go. Somehow I knew this would turn out to be my fault, whether it was or not . I sat down in the big leather chair and stared at the wall in front of me.
Steph: I stopped halfway realizing that Lacey wasn't with me. I turned and went back for him, it wasn't his fault. I put my arms around him, I love you Lacey.
Lacey: I stood - and I you Steph . I can't think what to do, there must be something,I told her as we walked to our room.
The next morning I got a call from someone who shall remain nameless. Lacey ? Yes I answered ? Is there a favor I can do for you? I understand you have a problem you might want a cure for is that right? Can I help?

BJ: I found some canned juice after searching through the cupboards for awhile. Then I remembered, there wouldn't be much unless Mer or I brought it here. Keely and Caroline ate most of their meals out . They didn't have much time for cooking, at least Keely didn't . I wondered why Caroline never cooked or started dinner to help her mother out. Keely did work in a restaurant . I was just trying to keep my mind working I decided and about that time I moved one thing too many and a whole shelf came falling down. Lucky for me it wasn't cans and it hit the counter instead of me-the shelf that is. It's just me Keely I shouted from amidst the mess on the floor.
Keely: I heard the crash, and BJ shouting to let me know it was him. I came down to make sure he was okay, and to see what had broken. I found him amongst boxes, cans and books on the floor. Are you alright? I found the toolbox under the sink, and went to work securing the shelf. Then I helped BJ dig his way out of the mess. When that was done, I sat him down and made the juice he had managed to find before the crash. So BJ, what is it you're trying not to think about?
BJ: You, I told her I'm trying not to think about you.
Keely: I handed him a glass of juice, and sat on the seat next to his. Is that all, or just the part when the shelf fell down?
BJ: No, I was thinking about you before that. Wondering why Caroline doesn't help out with meals when your working and can't do it. I know she'll help me sometimes. Your not talking about my surface thoughts are you ? I didn't think so. I've been offered a job on the space station. I don't think I'll take it -holi-deck programming and ambassador . It's a great move for me and I would be a fool not to take it but, I like radio. Do you think I'm nuts?
Keely: Only a little. Besides the ambassador status, can they offer you anything you really need? If not, then why give up radio for it?
BJ: The programming would be interesting. I won't do it though. I like being a voice in the night. Keely? Are you alright with my being here?
Keely: Why shouldn't I be? You pay your rent, take dance classes with me, you clean up after yourself, and you're not a pervert!
BJ: Well when you put it like that... I.. So are you prepared to go dancing tomorrow? It isn't midnight yet?
Keely: I'll be wonderfully prepared, since the job at the fish market is done, and I'll have more time to sleep. Not yet, but give it about 15 minutes. How's my grandmother doing?
BJ: Your....... Oh right, Mercedes, she is another puzzle going around in my head. She is feeling much better thanks. When is Caroline due back? August?
Keely: Yes, she'll be back in August. Just in time to get everything she needs for school.
BJ : Well, I said as I rose I'll see you about 5 am. then and we can have breakfast together. Will you have cereal as usual? Good night Keely, thanks.
Keely: Good night BJ. I was not going to be going back to sleep in the next hour or so, I decided to go get some groceries. I came back with a car load of things and stocked up the kitchen.

Pandora: I was going to be going to Portland! This was just awesome! I gave mom and dad hugs, then Hunter the biggest of all of them, I would spent the time I had left at home having fun I had decided. I owed it to Hunter especially because I had been rotten to him, and River and Chablis because they hadn't had a vote. I told them to get together that night and come up with a list of things they wanted to do before I left, we'd start tomorrow and I wouldn't argue with the list, Hunter could keep the requests reasonable. I spent the rest of the night packing things up and sorting through them. I was going to miss my room, and my family. I got help with getting my trunk down, and filled it with things I couldn't live without. I could hear Chablis and River from inside my room.
Chablis: I don't want Pandy to go! She'll miss everything!!!!
River: You mean like your first day at school? You and Marilyn will get together and you'll forget every thing else. I pity your poor teacher!
Hunter: Have you made up your lists yet? I asked from the doorway and continued on to my own room. I didn't know what to put on a list.
River: No ! Not yet I haven't Hunter. Maybe I'll get to help Po' design now! Chablis, your not going to cry are you?
Chablis: Poutily; No, I'm not gonna cry. I want Panda to take me to the zoo. Then I want Daddy and Mommy to say she can't go. Then I cried.
River: If your crying I'm leaving. I noisely let out a deep breath. The zoo sounds good . I left I didn't want to be around crying. I wondered what Hunter wanted but I wouldn't ask . I was going to work on a gift for Panda.
Chablis: River left, and I looked around for something maybe Pandy could take with her.

BJ: Mer went to sleep almost as soon as I came in. I decided to lie down with her I needed some sleep. I cuddled up with her and slept.
Mer: When I finally actually woke up, BJ was sleeping next to me. I kissed his cheek, and tried to wake him, he had to work tonight.
BJ: With a little nudging from Mer I woke and how are you I asked and after her reply I headed for the shower. I had almost forgotten about him. He sat on the floor with a keyboard, paper and a pencil. PJ was keeping him company. I took my shower and dressed, then went back to Mer.
Mer: You look absolutely smashing my dear. I gave him a kiss and a smile.
BJ: Smashing ? Well I guess that's good. I didn't ask about Russ. I would just leave that subject alone for now. I'm going to leave now. I'll stop somewhere and eat on the way. Russ will be here so you'll be alright? I'll see you in the morning night. I kissed Mer and then left.
Mer: I'll be fine, night. BJ left, and I went to see what Russ was doing now. He was on the floor with his musical keyboard, pen and a notebook. I sat on the sofa with a blanket, and asked Russ if he wanted to watch a movie, I was going to watch one of the newer ones that had come out if he was interested.
Russ: I looked up and Mer and then down over at PJ , she doesn't like my music . A newer one sure but, first are you hungry? She didn't seem to be so I carefully put the keyboard away with pen and note pad in the case and set it against a wall. I returned to the floor next to PJ and relaxed as the movie started, handing her a packet and taking one for myself. Popcorn- just hold it like this between your hands and it pops, see. I showed her how and the main feature began-a comedy. It was one I hadn't seen and I laughed,glad to see that it was actually funny!
As the week went on I left them alone when BJ was there, most of the time anyway. I my time with Dionne' was maybe lunch and Friday and Saturday. Claude and Penny got to see a lot more of their Aunt Mercedes. She was getting stronger and looking more than like herself again. BJ did his disappearing act every now and then but for the most part he was there for her. I was relieved to see that. I just didn't understand why he didn't commit to her fully and I wasn't about to ask. He in turn never asked why I was there. Sheridan came to visit a few times, having heard that Mer was ill. Brian Doyle came with her a couple of them. Don't remember what he was doing at that time. It didn't matter their lives were so on the edge all the time so it seemed . I hoped that once in a while they managed to find some peace. The end of the second week I released Mercedes from my care. She had come along faster than I had thought she would and more importantly she hadn't done anything to set herself back. I kissed her quickly on the lips and pronounced her free! Dionne' clapped and I kissed her too but much better. The girls just rolled their eyes, they wanted to go to dinner. We met Kari and Ariana at the restaurant and celebrated with champagne.
Mercedes: I was glad to finally be rid of Russ, I knew that BJ would leave again; when wasn't important anymore. We went up the mountain, and all the mental preparations I had made to let him go flew off the mountain with a bird.
BJ: We were back on the mountain looking over the country for miles around. I stood behind Mer and held her close as I put my arms around her. It felt so good to be here again even without the climb. The weather had cooperated it was sunny and there was a slight breeze. I bent my head and asked why did you want to come Mercedes ? You haven't told me. I turned her around to face me. What is it I asked?
Mer: I wanted to make sure I got up here again, just in case. I thought about telling him the rest, but didn't. I couldn't say those words that would attempt to end things with BJ.
BJ: Okay -I told her. If your sure. We had our picnic and just enjoyed being here. Mer, I have been offered a job on the space station. They want me to help set up holi-deck programming. I'm thinking of taking it and your the first one to know. What do you think? It would mean a huge increase in pay and full health care-two months vacation with pay starting right away. Very little contact with people and no interaction except with holograms. That should give you the pro & cons.
Mercedes: What could I say? I felt my heart breaking, he was considering a commitment to fake people, and he wanted me to give him an objective opinion! It really sounds like a great opportunity, but maybe it's an opportunity for someone else. I just can't see you holed up with just holograms for any extended length of time. Of course, I'm no good at reading people, even people I've known my entire life. What are your thoughts about it, does this sound like something you'd want to do?

BJ: Her answer to me was, that she couldn't see me not being around real people for that amount of time. That was one of the big hesitations I had about taking the job. Mer, there is the other part of this offer, an opportunity to serve as ambassador. Of good will perhaps, not sure. I started packing things up. I'm not sure I'm ready to be someone of that import at this time in my life. We should be getting back I wouldn't want to deal with Russ if you became ill. I helped her into the car finished packing up then drove back to her loft. I stayed with Mer until later that night and then left. She knew that I would leave it was a regular thing for a Saturday night. I kissed her good bye and took off for Keely's and my room. When I got there I let myself in as usual. I didn't feel like latte . I searched for something else to drink. I didn't want to be up all night.