2413 (Eagle Monroe continued) February I feel myself sinking deeper into this depression and no longer feel comfortable talking with Talia. E has been thinking of marring Roxanne.

April 28 I bought an engagement ring today, intending to ask Roxy to marry. Then my sanity returned and I realized that I didn't want to be married to that little girl and she didn't want to marry me. Hell, she doesn't even know me!!!!
Talia, well I did love her but, not that way. I loved her the way I used to care for Sarah, like a sister.

September - same year - My depression is lifting and my soul feels a thousand times lighter.

December -same year- The tour continues. I have been very moody of late, thinking of my Dad and Kari and my mom. How different each was from the other, the women that is. Seeing Kari is painful. I'm not sure it helps her to see me or not. I never know if seeing me makes her happy or not. This time when I go to visit I'll ask her if she wants me to come again.