Ell: I finally knew, in part because of Rudy's help, what was happening with all of my clients and friends. I had offered Rudy the job again, in writing. I didn't think he would take it but I had nothing to lose. I had thought a lot about my marriage since the concert. The conclusion I came to was that I should try to put more of myself into it. I talked it over with Evan, my husband, and was surprised that he was happy with things the way they were! The question is, was I? I Guessed that I used to be. I decided not to worry about it , and be glad, that he didn't notice how long or when I was missing. Enjoy it I told myself. I decided to offer Rudy a partnership, split right down the middle.

Maybe I'd try a shrink!