2403 The CD I had made for BJ, included one extra song that was only included on two copies of the disc. In that one song, I managed to describe exactly how much he meant to me. How happy he made me, what it felt like to be away from him; his smile, his voice, his arms. Making love to BJ wasn't just a nice way to say sex, it was exactly that--I loved this guy, in a period of about 2/3 months I had fallen for BJ. I wanted him to know, I needed him to know; because for the next 4 to 6 months I might not see him, who knew what Ell had in store for me. I didn't want to lose him because of work. Now, I had to find the right timing for him to hear it.