2399 January 11 I had a lovely time last night Marijuana, her fiance is a good lover. I think I'll try a Chandler next. I hear they! are very good lovers. I have been barred from the Whale. Do you believe that? I'll have to talk to Hennesy again. Is this because I told him we couldn't be friends? Maybe it's because I was honest. Should I recant and tell him, as the old song goes, I said I loved you but I lied? OH hell, Marijuana, will I ever find the right man or myself? Why is it I keep losing me? Everything starts to slip into place so perfectly, then it falls into pieces.

2399 January 23 I bought Governor Richards membership a week ago. What good is it if I can't use it? I don't think he can but what --if