2391 Continued.
As soon as I got it all out I felt relief . The only thing I regretted was yelling.
She had just told me that she loved me and now she looked like a deer caught in the headlights of a car. I didn't know what to do so I left.

Marijuana came after me blocking my way. I moved around her and continued down. Stopping momentarily I answered, repeating her question. Would I mind coming back to your apartment, Yes I would mind and I added, I have never in my life spoken that way to a woman before. I am too far out of control ! So no, I will not go back to your apartment. The thing , as you call it with your mother . Here I continued down the steps, Why don't you start thinking of her as a person Marijuana . Go ahead and say her name Char don nay! Char is a friend of mine . Show some respect for my friends, I always have for yours! I REALLY do not want to do this now Marijuana. I said, as we broke through the lobby door and out into the night air. I kept walking , then stopped abruptly . As for your apartment, do you really want to know what I think about that? I was moving again, when she didn't move I said over my shoulder , didn't think so!
She had done it again, the steam inside me was coming to a boil again and I started to Jog. She had taken the time to think and was now beside me
again. The apartment I said, is just that Marijuana, an apartment . It isn't
yours . I stopped the jog and walked instead. She started to object but I stopped her. When I opened that door earlier tonight and looked around I couldn't find anything of you there. Yes, yes, you have pictures. They don't seem to be special to you . Nothing in there seems to be anything but what it is. No special touches, table cloth nothing! You could spend all that money on flowers, that you weren't even sure would reach me but, couldn't find the time to get any for yourself.
Marijuana, I can't magically make you love yourself. Until you start to do that,you can't love someone else. I think the reason I came to see you tonight was to see if you had yet.
You .. you ... Take care of yourself.