Dating is getting easier because I just say no to sex and if they still want to see me, we date. I haven't formed any close relationships, I'm not ready to.
Marijuana, I miss the Whale. People talk to me about it. Some like the changes , others don't . I try to remain comment free but, if they aren't happy , they can sell their membership.
I saw Matthew yesterday, he was doing a shoot, bathing trunks. There seemed to be a sadness about him. I tried to leave a note for him-I think they just toss them, the notes. If he does get it he'll maybe be at Maxi's Deli at 3pm today. That's where I'm having lunch, why don't you join me?
It's two days later . Matthew just left its 2 pm. Matt didn't show at Maxi's that day, instead he followed me home and today he dropped by to see me. He wanted me to tell him what' up. He stopped going aboard the Whale. Nothing he wanted was there anymore he says. Hennesy was becoming a good friend but it wasn't necessary to be there every weekend.
In other words Marijuana, he was upset with me. So he didn't show for lunch but, he wanted answers so he came here. Anyway, he still wants to see me, to be with me. We can date but no sex,that's what I said. Matt's like, "We do know each other." We have gone on dates, we still can and will but...Well Marijuana, he had a point, so I guess you could say he convinced me. We had sex but I told him it wouldn't happen all the time. That I would be dating other guys.

2398 It's been 6 months since the Whale. My line of Fairy Tale Dream Beds is beginning to take off. Ok I'm feeling good about my life-work. Matt and I see each other once or twice a week ,maybe less depending . Hennesy wants me to see what he has done with the Whale. I haven't felt strong enough to go until now. K think I'll give him a call tomorrow. Ok, I know what you want to know, I'm only having sex twice a month and just with Matt.