2391 Marijuana: I shook myself, WHAT I said to him, WHAT! It was difficult to be angry with Eagle kissing me, after all, that was part of the reason I had come here in the first place. I had a whole hour before she got here, I could... Eagle, I said, she'll kill you. He didn't seem concerned, and I gave in to him.

She hadn't lied, an hour later she knocked on his door. I was entirely to satisfied to move from where I was laying. Unfortunately, it would not prove productive to be seen this way in his living room. Of course, I didn't know what Eagle would do. He had proven to be somewhat unpredictable. I stood, dressed, and got prepared to either kill her, or lie to her; I hadn't decided which would be my path of choice. I had thought that Eagle would put more than a towel on when he answered it. I tidied up, I didn't want her to know how long I had been there...though knowing my mother, she had already felt the engine of my car to see if it was warm or not. I stopped, sat on the couch, and began to look for apartments as I should have been earlier, before I found out Eagle was home. I couldn't help but smile at the thought of him. oh yes, an apartment.

I turned the infernal phone back on, she couldn't call, she didn't need to. She was standing in the doorway. I was hoping that it would ring... It didn't. Eagle had invited her in. I looked up as she walked into the room, she was going to kill me. What is it mom? I have to find an apartment to stay in when Eagle wants his other girlfriend to stay here with him. I was being obnoxious, but I thought it was funny, and smiled. Her eyes turned red, mom I said, what is it that you want me to say? I want you to tell me that you haven't been sleeping with Him-again. Mother, that would be lying. I have been sleeping with Eagle. If you'd like to know what it's like though, you'll have to ask Po'Em, If I was going to tell you it would have happened when you made me a prisoner in my room. I'm a big girl mom, if I need to find my own place I will. I have a good job, and a place to stay if I don't find a place right off. In fact, I've had a key here since about two days after graduation. You want this she asked me...I just want the opportunity to do what makes me feel good, without a guilt trip from you. It's amazing that you haven't said anything about the other photos you've undoubtedly seen of me.

When exactly do you want my stuff out of my room? You have until the end of the month to have all of your things out of my house she told me. Just as I said on the phone with you earlier. I will not have you as a live-in role model for Homer and Socrates. I bit my tongue, and watched her leave. I downed the rest of whatever it was I had poured myself earlier. I hadn't yelled, cussed, or anything like that. If it had been anywhere but here, it would have been worse. I was numb, completely numb. The hand holding my glass was limp. Eagle took it from me, setting it down on the table. He sat next to me, pulling me close. I couldn't cry in his arms, I just couldn't. It was just not something I was ready to do with him. I stood, and the tears ignored my mind, trickling down my face. I couldn't stand, and so I fell back into Eagles arms. I put my head on his chest and cried. I didn't love him, I knew he didn't love me... I looked up at his face, searching for something... All I found was an intense desire for him. Fighting this feeling was almost as hopeless as my situation with my parents. I kissed him, and taking his hand, I led him into bed. When I woke the next morning, I called in to work, telling them I was sick. Eagle was busy with his normal morning workout, and I got busy looking for a new place to live. I may stay here a lot, but I still needed my own place. I called a few places, and let Eagle know that I was going to be out looking at places.
I called Po'Em, and had her come with me. I found a place that I could live with, at about 3pm, after an entire day of searching. I could move in that night if I wanted. I had the utilities turned on, and after dropping Po back at home, I went to mom and dad's house. I gave the twins each a hug, who knew when I'd get to see them again, no thanks to mom. I started packing my things, my blankets, clothes, photos, everything. I didn't forget my juicer, they weren't going to use it anyways.

I had some friends help me move stuff into the new place, and I took a cab back over to Eagle's... I didn't even have a couch to sleep on yet. I made it to the chair in his room, and I was asleep. i woke sometime in the dark, and lay next to him. I woke with his arms wrapped around me. I kissed his cheek, and carefully maneuvered out of bed, took a shower, and got ready for a day at work. Eagle was still on his vacation, but he should have been awake by now. I made breakfast, and all the morning stuff. Then I took it in to him, and woke him up gently, telling him I would call later.

After work, I went to the new apartment, and got to work making it look like I lived there. I had found some furniture, and dishes, all the things I knew I would need. When I was done, it was time for dinner. I called Eagle, and told him that I needed his help with something...I would pick him up in about an hour.

I brought him back with me, it wasn't as plush as his home, but I wasn't rich...I wanted to know what he thought, but I wanted him to look around first. I told him to go ahead and check things out, I would make dinner. I watched him explore while I cooked. He looked in my closet, carefully examining it's contents.
It's nice he said to me, you did well. I heard something in his voice which might suggest that he would have preferred my moving in with him.